Oh god. Did he die thinking she still hated him? "That I would be able to..." Hands shaking, vision blurring. She can't.
She can't breathe. "Tell him I... didn't hate him."
And now when she goes back - she can't tell him. She can't tell him her adventures. She can't argue with him, she can't- she didn't... god why would he..how could he
Why couldn't he wait? Just a little longer. "That I..." It's harder to form the words. "I.." She clenched her fists, and at the first splash of a tear against the Fairy Tail mark on the back of her hand, the rest of her composure broke.
It wasn't fair. It wasn't right.
They were reconciling - things... they would have gotten better. "God..." She brought her hands up to her face, as if it would hold back the tears, as if it would help her bear the pain, curling downward into herself.
She can't even be angry at Natsu for what he tried to do. He had tried to spare her the pain after all - and it had to have been hard for him to keep it a secret this long. But the pain was still real - and the pain and sadness at knowing the truth was a million times greater than anything else.
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Oh god. Did he die thinking she still hated him? "That I would be able to..." Hands shaking, vision blurring. She can't.
She can't breathe. "Tell him I... didn't hate him."
And now when she goes back - she can't tell him. She can't tell him her adventures. She can't argue with him, she can't- she didn't... god why would he..how could he
Why couldn't he wait? Just a little longer. "That I..." It's harder to form the words. "I.." She clenched her fists, and at the first splash of a tear against the Fairy Tail mark on the back of her hand, the rest of her composure broke.
It wasn't fair. It wasn't right.
They were reconciling - things... they would have gotten better. "God..." She brought her hands up to her face, as if it would hold back the tears, as if it would help her bear the pain, curling downward into herself.
She can't even be angry at Natsu for what he tried to do. He had tried to spare her the pain after all - and it had to have been hard for him to keep it a secret this long. But the pain was still real - and the pain and sadness at knowing the truth was a million times greater than anything else.