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exsiliumlogs2013-04-06 05:09 pm
redheadcarrier) wrote in exsiliumlogs2013-04-06 05:09 pm
Dysfunctional
Date and Time: Afternoon of April 6
Location: The music room at the hold.
Characters: Asuka, Kaworu and Shinji.
Summary: The Eva kids get together. It doesn't really end well.
Warning: Angst. Talk of death, etc.
It'd been a week or so since Asuka had last spoken to Kaworu. Their encounter in the training room had left her a bit wary of talking to him, if only because that sword brought back too many unpleasant memories. Of course, she shouldn't let those thoughts control her (and by avoiding him, she let them control her just as much as if she'd sought him out from the first). Strange how that worked. Not that she was all that aware of how much it really shaped her reactions, but it left a niggling sense of unease at the back of her head.
The last week, coincidentally, had been rather terrible for her nightmares. She kept reliving those last few moments in her Eva in her dreams and she was losing sleep. In fact, she'd started putting it off in favor of puttering around her apartment and doing nothing particularly exciting. So maybe she ought to get the memories out. Kaworu had helped her so far, after all.
Of course, then it had taken her three days to finally convince herself to find him. She kept feeling miserable about the decision and changing her mind (she didn't need help and besides it wasn't like it would actually do anything for her). She hesitated in the doorway, fingers curling and relaxing as she tried to fight past the sense of unease and the little voice that called her a failure for doing this. She finally forced herself to stop through the door (if he wasn't here, she'd have to work the nerve up all over again) and took a quick look around the room.
"Hey, Nagisa. You have a minute to talk?"
Location: The music room at the hold.
Characters: Asuka, Kaworu and Shinji.
Summary: The Eva kids get together. It doesn't really end well.
Warning: Angst. Talk of death, etc.
It'd been a week or so since Asuka had last spoken to Kaworu. Their encounter in the training room had left her a bit wary of talking to him, if only because that sword brought back too many unpleasant memories. Of course, she shouldn't let those thoughts control her (and by avoiding him, she let them control her just as much as if she'd sought him out from the first). Strange how that worked. Not that she was all that aware of how much it really shaped her reactions, but it left a niggling sense of unease at the back of her head.
The last week, coincidentally, had been rather terrible for her nightmares. She kept reliving those last few moments in her Eva in her dreams and she was losing sleep. In fact, she'd started putting it off in favor of puttering around her apartment and doing nothing particularly exciting. So maybe she ought to get the memories out. Kaworu had helped her so far, after all.
Of course, then it had taken her three days to finally convince herself to find him. She kept feeling miserable about the decision and changing her mind (she didn't need help and besides it wasn't like it would actually do anything for her). She hesitated in the doorway, fingers curling and relaxing as she tried to fight past the sense of unease and the little voice that called her a failure for doing this. She finally forced herself to stop through the door (if he wasn't here, she'd have to work the nerve up all over again) and took a quick look around the room.
"Hey, Nagisa. You have a minute to talk?"