Things changed. For me. I was okay with it before, because I didn't have other choicesth. Here, I have friendsth, quadrantsth, the voicesth in my head are quieter, I have a job- I'm living a pretty normal life, outthide of a few thingsth. I mean... what ith my fate, after I die again? Dreambubblesth. Reliving the thame memoriesth over and over again, until the dreambubblesth thtop, and then who knows what.

I want to thtay here, and I know that meansth I'm beta, and I wanted you here, but now you're beta too. But I can't make mythelf care.