[ She nods to him and takes several breaths, a long inhale and exhale that hitch at the ends.
It's so relieving that he hasn't pulled away, but it's frightening too. Every time, every single time someone looks at her like this she can see the same eyes she knew from home, and how that kindness rotted in what felt like minutes...it digs a deeper pit in her stomach, little needles of dread.
Those faces are long gone, she has to tell herself, it was different, not like here.
She shifts to lean herself on him, mumbling an apology, eyelids pressed shut, fighting again to hold herself together. She can hear his heartbeat, and that makes her own ache. ]
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It's so relieving that he hasn't pulled away, but it's frightening too. Every time, every single time someone looks at her like this she can see the same eyes she knew from home, and how that kindness rotted in what felt like minutes...it digs a deeper pit in her stomach, little needles of dread.
Those faces are long gone, she has to tell herself, it was different, not like here.
She shifts to lean herself on him, mumbling an apology, eyelids pressed shut, fighting again to hold herself together. She can hear his heartbeat, and that makes her own ache. ]