deadelfwalking: that a prophet would be grieved (when you're cursed you're always hoping)
Koltira Deathweaver ([personal profile] deadelfwalking) wrote in [community profile] exsiliumlogs2013-10-31 11:10 am

[open] don't say it's easy to follow a process; there's nothing harder than keeping a promise

Date & Time: Whenever
Location: VR; halls
Characters: Koltira & you
Summary: it's hard OK
Warnings: spooky scary skeletons



A: V.R. ROOM; ACHERUS: THE EBON HOLD

[He could have used this technology to recreate his homeland of Quel'thalas. He did think about it, momentarily. But he had not seen the walls of that city for over ten years now, not since his people called themselves by another name, not since they had reinvented their entire identity and culture. Any Silvermoon he designed would be a dead memory; a smudged watercolor painting. He wasn't fit to walk those streets, anyway.

So he turned to the familiar. Acherus was a floating ziggurat, the base of operations for every death knight of the Ebon Blade. Because it began life as part of the Scourge, its decor was not inviting: the cold stone floor was inscribed with skeletal designs, and in many places it was littered with actual skeletons. Braziers of unearthly fire burned in its halls, and tattered, black drapes hung from its archways. Enormous kilns carved like skulls encircled the room, their eyes and mouths bright with blue flame.

Koltira is in the center of this room, viciously attacking a target dummy. No matter how many times he cut into the wood, no matter what poisons he feeds into the resulting cracks, the dummy does not topple or shatter. It spins from the force, its burlap sack head grinning luridly, but that's all.

Doing this keeps Koltira's mind from everything that's happened recently. He had dealt out lethal punishments before, but that was during his time as a slave. He has no regret for his decision in and of itself--some lessons must be brutally taught. But he wonders if he'll have to do it again, and how many times. He wonders how much that will change his face, how it will change the faces of those who look at him.

He impales the dummy with Byfrost, and he heaves.]


B: CORRIDORS

[Koltira tries to keep to the less populated areas of the base, but that is not an easy task. Even though the throes of his blood frenzy have passed, he still hears the pulse of the transports like a war drum in his ears, pounding, pounding, pounding. The rush of their veins thrums beneath his skin, and he stares at anyone who passes him for several more seconds than necessary. He thinks of their delicate wrists; their vulnerable ankles. He thinks of their blood in his mouth. Then, clenching his fists, he turns away.]
totallytrustworthy: (SCOWLIN AT U)

[personal profile] totallytrustworthy 2013-11-06 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
[Because you're friends and also she's in Chloe's space, god Koltira!]

Sorry, I think it does.
highhealplz: oh wait i did and it's FUCKING GREAT (angst | should've got safety wall)

[personal profile] highhealplz 2013-11-06 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ He looks up again with sympathy in his face, ring and its memories retreating back into the back of his mind. ]

It's not meant to be easy, is all I can say.

[ He lifts a hand to rest gently at Koltira's cheek and, in a moment, leans in to kiss him again. It's greed, it's selfishness, it's nothing he should be encouraging right after admitting that he can't go through with it — but he wants just one more. It's light and careful, but lingering. ]
highhealplz: but i hate those castles anyway, so it was fine. (talk | and that's how we lost geffen)

[personal profile] highhealplz 2013-11-06 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ The hands in his hair is wonderful and soothing, but the reminder of the last person who'd run their hands through his hair makes him, at last, draw back. He stays close though, and drops his head to rest his forehead against the cool metal at Koltira's shoulder.

Low:
] It isn't just Olivia that's stopping me.
miscreant: ({ no longer the same; ❄)

[personal profile] miscreant 2013-11-06 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
There is no Ebon Blade here, Deathweaver. There is no Scourge, there is no Alliance nor Horde.
totallytrustworthy: (worst job ever)

[personal profile] totallytrustworthy 2013-11-06 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
And i don't go about tearing holes in people and calling it all well and good, do I?
miscreant: ({ the scars will remain; ❄)

[personal profile] miscreant 2013-11-06 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
[She pauses.]

Is that why you chose to return me here?
highhealplz: card art? it makes me uncomfy. (unsure | did you ever notice injustice's)

[personal profile] highhealplz 2013-11-06 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
It's Sonya, too. [ The guilt hits him more fully now; he'd told her he would wait. ] Sofiya Karimov. If she hadn't had a change of heart, she and I might well be together by now.
theguideless: (♔ the delay)

[personal profile] theguideless 2013-11-06 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
Or fit them anywhere...There's not a lot of room to put them anywhere, is there?
highhealplz: (cajole | raydric in a +1 muffler? pah.)

[personal profile] highhealplz 2013-11-06 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
Sonya could change her mind, Olivia could show up here, young and alive again...

[ He smiles, but it's utterly without humor. ]

It's not too late for me to take a vow of celibacy, right?
moralperil: (ummmmm...)

[personal profile] moralperil 2013-11-06 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
Like, um ... Two girls together, or two boys, that's called gay, and some people say that's bad. So if a boy liked me, for whatever stupid reason, he might want to keep it a secret. Even if we were seeing each other.

But I don't even really think of myself in those terms. I mean, like, maybe I'm like a boy but I'm also like a girl so what's the big deal? But then he said I'd still be a boy no matter what, so it would always be wrong. It just seems like a lot to keep track of...!
totallytrustworthy: (nepal: 5)

[personal profile] totallytrustworthy 2013-11-06 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
[Hard to keep the scowl off her face even with the knowledge that he's on edge-- that he's struggling with his own trials on a level she can't entirely comprehend and certainly doesn't care to-- but god knows this conversation didn't have to play out the way it did.

Or maybe she just likes to think it could've played out differently.
]

Right so I should just not take an interest in what you're up to these days.
highhealplz: oh wait i did and it's FUCKING GREAT (angst | should've got safety wall)

[personal profile] highhealplz 2013-11-06 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
Well, it's served me well enough so far...

[ He draws back and looks up at Koltira. He'd love to kiss him again. This should be happy, having just admitted to long-standing feelings and found them to be reciprocated. But it isn't, and he knows better than to give into the urge again. Instead he takes a breath and grows more serious. ]

There was one more thing I wanted to talk to you about.
totallytrustworthy: (nepal: 4)

[personal profile] totallytrustworthy 2013-11-06 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
[She balks at his accusation, lip curled back when she responds:] I've been up front with you for half a bloody year, mate-- you're the one that's never bothered to trust me while I was doing it.

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