"It's great. Just need to lie down or something. Not feeling so good."

Okay, so he hasn't seen it in a mirror or anything. But it's not impossible to see around it now. That's most of what matters anyway, right?

It's tough to explain about existential crises and grief and confusion and the infuriating helplessness that goes along with being young and useless and gentle when you're supposed to be a soldier in a war. Maybe Collette understands anyway, or maybe she doesn't. But it doesn't feel good. It doesn't make him feel good. He's not lying about it, he just doesn't know how to explain it better. This is all really new and fucked up.