[It's in this moment that he realizes just how badly he messed up his son. No, as much as losing Sam is a thought he can't even bear to entertain...it would have been better than what he feared was in store for him, what he's absolutely terrified to discover might have already happened. My hands aren't exactly clean either, so maybe you should be telling people to stay away from me.
It's a terrible thing to think but yes. Wasn't it what he ordered Dean to do? Save him or kill him? If he was dying by another's hands...it was life doing their dirty work for them. And it's terrible because he truly loves Sam with all of his heart and had he not sold his soul for Dean, he would have sold it for Sam in a heartbeat. But Dean shouldn't have.]
No. You shouldn't have. Dean -- you're worth just as much -- you deserve to live -- just as much.
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It's a terrible thing to think but yes. Wasn't it what he ordered Dean to do? Save him or kill him? If he was dying by another's hands...it was life doing their dirty work for them. And it's terrible because he truly loves Sam with all of his heart and had he not sold his soul for Dean, he would have sold it for Sam in a heartbeat. But Dean shouldn't have.]
No. You shouldn't have. Dean -- you're worth just as much -- you deserve to live -- just as much.
[Just as much as he doesn't.]