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01 | Stabby Feels Central Ahoy

Date & Time: 6th January, Night time

Location: Lucy's room or more precisely Lucy's bed

Characters: Natsu Dragneel, Lucy Heartfilia

Summary: Natsu goes to Lucy's room to figure out how to give his friend the worst kind of news.

Warnings: Lots of feels but other than that nothing much.

Dark. The dark would help him focus. Her scent would help imagine her in his head and allow him to play out way after way to reveal his deception to Lucy. Natsu was never one to meditate this much on any topic. But this, this was something beyond serious. Erza told him to tell the truth as soon as possible but every method and angle he tried until now only ended in the bitter scent of Lucy's tears. And honestly how could it end any other way? To find out that all of her family is dead. Gone before she could ever make amends.

There he was, sitting cross legged atop her bed his head in his hands as he growled his frustration through gritted teeth. Why? Why was there no way to not make her suffer like that again? She didn't deserve this. She was Lucy of Fairy Tail. She never wronged or hurt anyone. So then why did she have to lose everything beyond fairy Tail? She was not like the rest of them yet. She still had him despite the flaws. And Natsu could see he did love her especially that one time they went to pick her up when she ran off to her father's guild where a robbery took place. He saw that look. The look of a loving and proud father.

So then why couldn't he wait a month more? A year more? At least a week more after they came out of the First Master's spell. Stupid sickness. Stupid unfair fate conspiring against a kind and strong girl. A girl who laughed off the danger of having her skull crushed, choosing to stay with him trapped underneath stone. Why did he have to hurt that kind of girl?

Before Natsu could think on that any further though he heard the door to the apartment open and in came a fresher waft of the scent he had been inhaling for several hours now. He wasn't ready. But then he would never be ready. This was going to hurt her one way or another. So he sat there, head hung low trying to decide what kind face he would greet Lucy with

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.. It was a what? "A picture book?" She turned her head slightly, glancing at Natsu out of the corner of her eye. "What was it about?"

Yeeeeeeah she was probably going to laugh when she discovered the origin. But that was okay right? She was allowed to laugh a little after everything.

"A picture book. About two bears. One of them was afraid of the thunder. They had a party one night and they had so much fun they got stuck indoors cause of a storm." Natsu started, slowly getting into the flow of the story and recounting the events as he remembered them. Which might have been a little bit diferent from the origin but hey as long as Lucy got a story that was all that mattered.

Was he serious? She couldn't tell, it was hard to see his face from that angle. Which was probably good. But the thought that Natsu had the idea because he read a picture book about bears that were afraid of thunder...

She stifled a soft giggle, though he could probably still hear it. Heck, feel it since she was leaning against his chest. "But...where did ...this come from in the story?"

Yes he was damn serious. What? Couldn't a guy look at picture books when he was a kid? He did feel her giggling and while he did feel a bit embarassed, there was no hiding the faint smile tugging at the corner of his lips.

"I was getting to that. I thought you didn't like getting the ending to a story spoiled for you." Then again she never asked for the full story did she? Well details and technicalities and all that.

"So lightning started going off and the scaredy bear jumped up and hid under the table. No matter what the other bear did the scaredy one wouldn't come out." Okay standard story so far right?

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Sure he could! She thought it was adorable! "Sorry." She smiled faintly, sheepish. It was true, she -hated- it when people spoiled the ending to a book. "Go on."

She'll be good and be quiet for the rest of the story, her body relaxing quietly as she listened to the sound of Natsu's voice. Who knew he'd read something so adorable when he was little? That was just precious.

She certainly sounded better and that made his shame all worthwhile. Natsu huffed with mock indignation before continuing on.

"The brave bear kept trying to talk the scared bear from under the table....you know calling them brave bear and scared bear is a pain. Wanna name em something?" And now it was turning into an interactive story. Not that he'd know of the concept.

The story was a nice little distraction, both from the news about her father's death, for the moment; and the feel of his arms around her. She could be leaning against another pillow just - really really close next to him.

"Name them? Er..." Braining Bear Names is a little beyond her mental capacity right now, but she gives it a shot anyway. "Bearsy and...er.. Bob."

Don't laugh.

Hey as long as she wasn't getting crushed by the grief again or he didn't have to leave her alone for the night, it was all fine with him.

Though the names. It was hard not to laugh but somehow, SOMEHOW he managed to keep it in. There was just one more detail.

"Alright then. S-So which is which?"

If she asked him, Bearsy would probably be the scared one with Bob being the brave one...he wasn't any better with asigning names either it would seem.

Bob sounded like a nice strong name, she'd probably agree. "Bearsy is probably the scared one." She said after a moment of quiet thought.

She might have an idea that Natsu was trying not to snicker at her choice in names, but he asked so he had no one but himself to blame for her choices!

Oh hey he got it right. Totally as planned. Totally not just sheer luck nope.

"Okay so B-Bearsy was being stubborn and scared under the table and no matter what Bob did he wouldn't budge. Bob knew the storm was going to last for a good while so he was determined to get Bearsy out from under the table. Until he realized there was another way.

Bob put his big paws on the table and pushed hard. Bearsy curled into a ball the moment the next lightning strike hit and it was a close one too since the light was really bright through the windows." Natsu was getting into it probably a little more than he intended and ideas to ad lib were starting to form in his head but he stuck to what he remembered. Which was already fairly diferent if they were to consult the book.

"Bob told Bearsy to get up saying the floor was cold at first. Bearsy wouldn't give in saying he wouldn't move from the spot until it was all over. So Bob did the only thing he could. He sat down next Bearsie and poked him in the ribs to get him to uncurl."

No Actually that is what Natsu would have done in Bob's shoes but hey it kept the story going.

Lucy smiled in quiet amusement as the story progressed, but as promised, she didn't interrupt or anything! What a silly little story. But terribly, terribly cute. ... this was perhaps one of the strangest nights she's had with Natsu yet. Er. Not ... that she'd had a lot of them or anything! Because that would be weird.

Emotional ups and downs all over the place. But she could tell Natsu was getting into the story, and although it was tempting to look up this story when they got home, she had a feeling she'd like Natsu's version better. And because she wasn't interrupting or anything, she instead made a soft 'Mmhmm' to encourage him to continue the story about the bears.

"It took a few more pokes to get Bearsy to open up but when he did, Bob saw Bearsy was crying the whole time." Natsu went on, his arms tightening their hold faintly on instinct.

"Bob felt bad for taking away Bearsy's shelter. So he decided to be Bearsy's shelter instead. So Bob curled around Bearsy and after a while he stopped crying. Bob stayed like that for a while until he started feeling sore. Bearsy spoke up then asking Bob if he was still awake saying that he was getting a crushed under him.

So Bob suggested they try something else. Bearsy felt a bit guilty too for making Bob have to stay with him on the floor like that. So during a break in the lightning, Bob moved with Bearsy over to the couch." Natsu paused then for air since he'd gotten a liiiitle bit ahead of himself. Actually he was feeling a bit thirsty too. Thankfully the story was close to the end.

"So they sat there on the couch with Bearsy between Bob's legs and they stayed like that all through the storm. Only Bearsy ended up falling asleep sometime along the way. Bob didn't want to wake up his friend so he also ended up falling asleep like that. But Bearsy ended up getting over his fear of the thunder with the help of his friend. And that's all I remember." Natsu said finally letting out a sigh. His throat was kind of killing him.

Yep. She may have to put it to a vote, but she was fairly sure this was the cutest story she'd ever heard. Her arms shifted over his slightly, when he tightened his grip slightly as he talked.
Briefly raising a hand to rub it over her eyes, she heaved a soft sigh, her breathing having calmed, leaving her just -- tired.

And Natsu was ... really comfortable. Especially like this. Fortunately that stray thought moved along before she could process it and be sufficiently mortified, quietly listening to the sound of her friend's voice. There was something soothing about it, or maybe now that she worst of her tears had worked their way through, her body was acknowledging how tired she was.

When the story finally came to an end, Lucy smiled slightly, fleetingly. "... that was a nice story." She sighed softly. Oh, is your throat getting dry and needing water? Sorry, Lucy didn't seem to notice - in fact, she was starting to doze off, though she was /trying/ to keep her eyes open. One doesn't fall asleep in their friend's arms like this!

"Natsu..." she ventured after a few minutes of more quiet, though her voice was a mix of grief and exhaustion, quiet. "... promise me..." Absently her hand shifted to find his, to slide around and curl her fingers through his, tightly. GAH! no stay awake Lucy. "... promise me you won't lie to me again." It hurt badly enough that her father was gone. It made it ten times worse that her friend lied about it.

. . . better say something before she falls sleep and you're stuck drinkless.

Natsu found himself leaning a bit closer as if trying to catch the faint sound of her breathing. Funny since he had his hypersensitive Dragon Slayer hearing but still that didn't stop him from slowly leaning in unttil she spoke up.

"Glad you liked it" Because it was nowhere near the original by the time he finished. Well his throat could wait a bit more. He didn't even flinch when her hand touched his but there were signs of surprise showing on his face when she gripped him that tightly.

And then she asked him to make that promise. Again Erza's words played in his mind along with the first moments of Lucy's reaction to the news. He closed his eyes with a sigh.

"I promise, I'll never lie to you again, Lucy" Prank lying didn't count in that right? Or say birthday party lying or celebration lying. Those were all still green, right? Right.

Yea about that drink. The only clue would be his slightly more hoarse voice since he clearly had forgotten how to ask for a glass of water. And he did make that OTher promise of not leaving Lucy alone. So that bared him any opening to go get something for his parched throat.

Gettin' a little close there are we Natsu? That's okay - Lucy wasn't even paying it any mind. To be expected, given ...well... everything. She tightened her grip on his hand until he answered, when her grip gentled significantly. Instead she gave his hand a soft squeeze, silent gratitude.

After another short pause, she started to pull her hand away again. She knew she told him not to leave her alone, but that was kind of selfish of her wasn't it? And...

"You don't have to stay ..." If he didn't want to. She'd be okay now right? Right...wellmaybekinda. But she was aware she was starting to fall asleep, and she was starting to feel like Not moving(tm). "I'll.... I'll be okay."

He didn't have to stay. She wanted him to though.

Natsu tilted his head and eyes Lucy as if she sprouted another head. What was she going on about. She was not okay in the least and besides she had just made him promise. Natsu shook his head and linkes his hands in front of Lucy to hold her in place.

"You're right. I don't have to. But I want to. What I don't want is to break another promise to you." And so he flashed that bright sunny smile of his before settling in more comfortably. Seemed there was no escape after all.

Hm. Well. Lucy stared at the hands linked in front of her, "But.." But he wanted to.

"..." Well if he was okay with it... she glanced over her shoulder at that smile, and as he got more comfortable. She smiled back. There weren't enough words to express how glad she was he was so -stubborn- that moment. And how intuitive he could be.

She turned her head away when she felt the smile wavering, pillowing her head against his shoulder instead. "... okay." She murmured quietly. "Just for tonight." She shifted slightly, a little embarrassed by her own agreement. Don't even think she would agree to this again!

She'll just use his shoulder as her pillow. Although his sleeve might end up getting wet in the middle of the night if she dreamed of her father. That was okay right?

His chest shook twice with subdued laughter. Just for tonight. She could believe that all she wanted. He'd still pop in at night sometimes. But this was diferent what with both parties consciously agreeing to it. Yes. Diferent but...nice for the lack of a better word.

"Yeah just for tonight if you want" There that wasn't a lie. It just had a convenient little loophole.

He'd hold her as long as he was conscious either tighter or lighter depending on how her sleep would go. A wet sleeve was nothing to be concerned about. Not as long as she would be able to smile in the morning. Or scream at him then kick him to the head. That would work too, most likely.

Damn your loopholes Natsu! But with the agreement set in stone, per se, and Lucy unable to keep her eyes open anymore, she shifted into a more comfortable position in his arms, drifting off.

As for when she woke up in the morning, she would probably smile. Riiight up until she realized Natsu was awake too, in which case she'd predictably freak out and kick him out of the bed. But for now, he has a sleeping Lucy treasure.

Natsu watched her drift away into slumber. Of course he didn't expected her to be completely over the bad news in a single day but then that just meant he had to keep helping out with that whatever way he could. That was natural for friends and comrades to do. So he told himself at least. Still he couldn't deny that holding her like this while she slept felt oddly right.

And soon enough his head dipped lower along with his closing eyelids as sleep took him as well. Whether he would wake up first or now would be a story for another time. And hopefully it would be a happier one.

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