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exsiliumlogs2013-03-18 09:31 pm
reconnaissance) wrote in exsiliumlogs2013-03-18 09:31 pm
[closed] So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
Date & Time: forward dated: Friday 22nd – Sunday 24th March
Location: a fair way into the Outlands
Characters:
Asami Satochittybang, Cedric Diggory theboywhodied, Collette whatsupcroc, Ellie Linton reconnaissance, Fi Maxwell burnsinvisibly, Katniss Everdeen accidentalrebellion, Mitsuki Ishikawa drowns, Peter Parker arachnoid, Steph Brown controlledvariable
Summary: Nine teenagers with varying degrees of trauma decide to go camping.
(Actually, eight teenagers get bullied into going camping by Ellie.)
Warnings: Not sure yet; I'll add them as they come up. At the very least some language, and fallout from PTSD.
Ellie had found the place once before on her wandering into the Outlands; a dilapidated old barn, with stone walls and a roof that was, by some miracle, completely intact despite all the evidence of nature clambering up its walls and trying to reclaim it for the land. There's a hill leading down to it, and if you follow that hill down, you meet the woods, a big lake. It's beautiful, she thinks. Nowhere near so wild as Hell, but that was better.
Finding that place had been how it started, before thinking about getting some of the others together had kicked in. A way to unwind, after the body swap. At the very least a chance to get some decent people all together in the same place (and maybe a way to apologise to Asami for pointing a gun at her that one time).
OOC: Party style, adventures everyone.Just go wild, if you want it to be set at a particular time, maybe specify in the subject line? I'm doing some starters just... in case that helps but do whatever you like tbh. YEAH. There's also the ooc plotting post so chuck folks in there and scheme and let the madness and CR unfold.
Location: a fair way into the Outlands
Characters:
Asami Sato
chittybang, Cedric Diggory theboywhodied, Collette whatsupcroc, Ellie Linton reconnaissance, Fi Maxwell burnsinvisibly, Katniss Everdeen accidentalrebellion, Mitsuki Ishikawa drowns, Peter Parker arachnoid, Steph Brown controlledvariableSummary: Nine teenagers with varying degrees of trauma decide to go camping.
(Actually, eight teenagers get bullied into going camping by Ellie.)
Warnings: Not sure yet; I'll add them as they come up. At the very least some language, and fallout from PTSD.
Ellie had found the place once before on her wandering into the Outlands; a dilapidated old barn, with stone walls and a roof that was, by some miracle, completely intact despite all the evidence of nature clambering up its walls and trying to reclaim it for the land. There's a hill leading down to it, and if you follow that hill down, you meet the woods, a big lake. It's beautiful, she thinks. Nowhere near so wild as Hell, but that was better.
Finding that place had been how it started, before thinking about getting some of the others together had kicked in. A way to unwind, after the body swap. At the very least a chance to get some decent people all together in the same place (and maybe a way to apologise to Asami for pointing a gun at her that one time).
OOC: Party style, adventures everyone.Just go wild, if you want it to be set at a particular time, maybe specify in the subject line? I'm doing some starters just... in case that helps but do whatever you like tbh. YEAH. There's also the ooc plotting post so chuck folks in there and scheme and let the madness and CR unfold.
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[It's an explanation, maybe, for why this troubles her so much, for why she didn't just let it go.
Gently, carefully, like she's not sure it's allowed, she reaches out to take Ellie's hands.]
I just don't want you to get hurt. Things that might've been safe back home aren't safe here.
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Who? Why would they do that?
( Who would do that? Who would want to see that again, see any kind of war or destruction like that again? It's horrifying, and it's real, and it's war that was too close to Steph. Here was different, this wasn't her home, but that's like a war on Steph's doorstep. )
Nothing's safe at home. ( Dismissive, brushing it away, before the impact of what she admits can catch up. ) Did you-- I mean. ( What happened? Was Steph safe? )
ugh fucking comics canon
[She doesn't think she's ever told this story before, because everyone back home knows it. Letting go of one of Ellie's hands, she rubs at her brow, trying not to think too hard.]
A bunch of supervillains dropped him on Bludhaven and over a hundred thousand people died, before Superman managed to fix it. He wasn't supposed to be radioactive, except... in the damage left by him, there was this radioactive fallout.
[A pause, a sigh, because this is all came from second hand sources, some of it told more frantically, depending on cirumstances. She remembers reading the newspaper.]
So they dropped what was basically a bomb on the city, and then there was all this shit for a year - I was in Africa at the time - and then there was another explosion, definitely nuclear that time. The city's just a crater, now.
[She looks at Ellie, something twisted in her expression, before she shrugs.]
Supervillains.
marsden and comics, why did we combine the two
Ellie can't-- focus, can't see, just shuts her eyes for a second, and her hands are gripping one of Steph's, and the other on Steph's shoulder, because she has to grip something for a second, has to hold herself steady. If she can keep herself from shaking then it won't be real and Steph won't notice, they can carry on.
But people did this. Not even invaders, people so desperate for room to breathe that they took it from someone else. Just wanted destruction, it seemed like. Supervillains.
Major Harvey, Harvey's Heroes, the Showground, people's families. Robyn. Waves of heat and sound and scared smiles. )
They should die. All of them.
it is a recipe for disaster
She holds Ellie's hand, her other going to Ellie's back, a firm touch in the hopes it will steady her, because she doesn't want to risk wrapping her up in a hug. It was a bad idea to talk about this, she should have let it go, should have found another way to describe it, instead of making Ellie look like this.
There's an apology on the tip of her tongue, but she swallows it with what Ellie says.]
I know.
[No hesitation, because she saw what happened, knows how many people died.
But that part isn't important right now.]
Ellie. Tell me what to do.
[She's pretty sure she just managed to trigger Ellie, and she needs to know how to help.]
we are like moths to the flame of disaster
( More desperation than assertion, less fire than she wanted, though she can feel her skin prickling, t-shirt sticking to her skin, knows she's still shaking and she knows this isn't then, she knows it isn't, and bombs and-- ) Fuck.
( She might swear a lot, but it never sounds like that, doesn't have that painful crack and waver, her voice doesn't shake like a leave rattled in the winter breeze, rattled and battered until something will tear it from the branches and hurl it to the ground. She always thought leaves fluttered, but she knew better now. They were pushed.
What did the others do? When she was like this what did they do? She can't think, because they'd all become to wrecked. ) Blanket, I'll just-- I just need a blanket.
( Like a child, she can feel her mind offering, can remember Major Harvey calling her a child, a selfish teenager, naive. He sent people to their deaths, violent and bloody and drawn out, even if there was no radiation monster. That part felt too surreal. )
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I'm sorry, El.
[She moves without hesitation, grabbing up one of the blankets and wrapping it around Ellie's shoulders, holding it firmly around her.]
Is it okay if I touch you?
[Because some people are okay with being touched, and some people very much aren't, and she doesn't want to do the wrong thing right now, not when it's her fault that this is even happening.]
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She's sure she's speaking. Isn't she? Sure and speaking?
She's trying to say Robyn's name. Mouth it out and say it, the way she'd tried so hard to at the prison, just so Robyn would know that someone had realised what she was doing, and she's flinching at the crack of wood in the fire because of the thunderous split of stone, glass, metal in the heat.
Just-- give her warmth, and arms around her, and she can drag herself back together, and she can hate the fact that Steph has seen her like this later. )
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There's nothing she can really do except to offer what little comfort she can while they wait this out. But she does press a kiss to Ellie's hair whispering nonsense things like it's alright and I've got you, hoping that the sound of her voice will help, even if the words don't mean much.]
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Without thinking, she's pressing closer to Steph. She's warm and safe and just Steph, who's been better for soothing away nightmares than anyone else. She's not quite there, but she realises Steph, recognises her, and there's no one else she'd want here. No matter what way she jumped there was disaster, but Steph made it better. Just her being there now, that meant it might get better.
Her fingers loosen in Steph's shirt, and then curl again, before she murmurs a near-silent apology. ) Sorry.
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It's okay.
[She relaxes as Ellie does, pressing another kiss against her forehead, lightly running her fingers through Ellie's hair.]
It was my fault.
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( So quiet and distant, as if she were speaking over some massive distance, as if the wind was stealing her voice. )
I asked you a question and you answered. You were honest.
( If she were at full force, it might sound flippant, harsh, downright rude, but for now she just kisses' Steph's neck and resumes her huddlings. )
You're not responsible for this.
( The way they weren't responsible for Kevin in the truck, Chris drink driving andj just, actually just the mess everything was. )
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I should've answered it better.
[Should have been more careful, instead of getting caught up in a story, an explanation. She knows better than to be careless with people who can have a minefield of issues. Ellie is her friend, she should've been more careful.]
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( Normally that would sound more assertive. I don't want to argue about this, we aren't going to argue about this, but this time there's just the slightest pleading note to it. She doesn't want to argue about it and have to convince Steph that it isn't her fault. )
You didn't do any of it. Not the big stuff.
( None of the stuff that needs apologising for, in the end. She didn't betray their homeland, lead people to death, kill Robyn. ) It's not your fault.