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Pepper Potts ([personal profile] mostqualified) wrote in [community profile] exsiliumlogs2013-05-18 10:05 pm

on the right side of the white noise [closed]

Date & Time: backdated to the night/morning of 05/13-14 idek it's in the past
Location: unit 610
Characters: tony [[personal profile] fe_male] & pepper [[personal profile] mostqualified]
Summary: after this ; pepper comes home a mess
Warnings: mentions of blood and other things yep



[ She's positively numb with disbelief. Or fear. In fact, her mind has yet to catch up to what it is she's actually feeling, so there's not much going on beyond automatic movement and trying to make sense of what's happened. The conversation is a blur. Past Jules saying that she isn't human and needs-- Monster. Her friend, this woman she's learned to trust is a monster. No, that's not quite right. Is it? Pepper's mind blanks halfway through the thought, and when she stumbles, she's not outside like she'd been a few moments before.

The familiar hallways of the apartment complex greet her, vivid contrast to the dark. A step, a blink, and the shock still hasn't worn off, entering 610 without realizing the mess she's leaving behind as she does. A streak of red from her hands stains the door, and Pepper's grateful that no one's in the living area, that the lights are sort of dim. She wouldn't know what to tell Max if she'd seen her because she doesn't even know what to tell Tony. If she should say something. She should, she knows, but the words are stuck despite them having finally left her shortly before. Her fingers touch her throat in memory, eyes wide as she moves through the apartment without noticing much at all.

She can't decide if she should shower first or lie down. Shower, bed, take off her clothes. Not necessarily in that order.

They're covered with splatters of blood anyway, her dress and jacket, and she slips out of her shoes as she continues on a path toward the bathroom. Perhaps the bedroom. Pepper shakes, can't control the shiver working through her limbs as she eventually makes it to one of the doors - she's not sure which - and simply stands there facing it with her back turned the other way. She can't catch her breath, and when she tries, she almost cries instead. ]
fe_male: 30 seconds later the Asgardians lose their fucking minds. (hah: it's time they heard 'tubthumping')

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-19 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's a weird hour of the night/morning, which effectively guarantees that Tony is still awake. He had been working in his workshop most of the day doing this and that - mostly just passing time, since he seemed to have hit a mental block on several of his projects at once, which meant the problem was him, which was frustrating on a whole new level and just made him want to solve the issues faster, which didn't work because of the wall - it was a mess.

So he dropped everything - some of it literally, but just what was in his hands - shoved his hands into his pockets and decided to walk back to the apartment. Not so much for the people, although if Pepper were there, that would help. Pepper made everything better. Max had already informed him she might not be around for a few days off and on, so he honestly wasn't sure where she'd be.

But when he reaches the apartment, he finds what is definitely blood on the door. He rushes in, worried now, and quickly finds Pepper even in the dim light, and she looks like she's shaking, lightly. She looks like she has blood on her in strange places, and for a moment it's like the arc reactor isn't a pacemaker at all but a vise around his heart. He can't tell if she's hurt or crying or anything, and he's not sure how to approach her because his legs have suddenly forgotten that they're not actually rooted to the floor.

So he calls to her, unsure and uncertain and a little tight. ]
Pepper?
fe_male: (what: are you talking about)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-19 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ She turns around and that's more blood, what the hell, and her hands and her posture and he can't even deal with the look on her face right now, okay, he can't. He starts to take a step towards her when she steps backwards, but halts himself halfway through, because he doesn't know what happened here and he doesn't want to inadvertently scare her even further. So he puts his hands up in front of him, a placating gesture, defensive but universal for 'I'm not going to hurt you' just to make sure.

Jesus she's got blood on her face, someone tried to make her stay quiet, and he feels a flash of momentary anger course through him at the mental image. He doesn't need to think about that right now though, he needs to stay right here in the moment with Pepper, be the clear head that she isn't right now. So he slowly moves towards her, talking the whole while. She looks like she needs an anchor, or something, and right now he's the only one he can think of. Who knows, she could just be really surprised and he's over-reacting. He's not used to seeing her like this. ]


Hey baby, it's okay, right? Just me now. It'll be fine. Can you just tell me if that's your blood? I don't know if you need to see a doctor or not and I don't wanna take you to one right now if you don't.
fe_male: if you're feeling vulnerable tomorrow night (hey: hey give me heads up)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-19 02:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Very true, that's pretty much totally confusing, actually, because she doesn't look hurt or in pain, so he was pretty sure it wasn't hers. And she's nodding and shaking her head and that's totally conflicting but he doesn't mind, it's okay. She can be contradictory as long as she's not backing away from him, as long as she moves towards him he can still take care of things.

Tony totally doesn't mind her leaning on him. Tony doesn't mind holding her up entirely, he can do that. He holds her close to him, one arm around her waist and one around her back, holding her head. ]


It's okay, look, I'm here. It's okay, you're safe. [ He'd like to get the blood off of her, that's still like, a thing, but it can wait until it feels more like she can stand on her own, maybe. ]
fe_male: (what: softer yeah okay)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-20 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ God, it's... It's hard to listen to the sounds that she's making, feel the way that she's breathing as she's held close to him, and now she's crying and he barely knows how to handle Pepper crying, only has experience when he was the cause of it and now that's not even the issue and he has no idea what to do with her except stand up straight and hold her to him and continue muttering things to her that don't mean anything. A steady stream of his voice in 'okay's and 'I'm here's and the like that he won't be able to recall accurately if asked, and she likely isn't registering concretely enough for their lack of sense or logic to matter.

He'll just hold her up, that's fine, keep her close, until she's okay again, until he can go back out and fix whatever the fuck caused this.. this breakdown. He's not sure he can even handle seeing Pepper break down. It's weird, and new - well, not that new, but still weird anyway - and he doesn't know what to do about it. Last time he kissed her. He doesn't feel like that would go over that well this time. He's stuck, waiting on some sort of change to happen in the current situation that will give him more or different variables to work with, anything that he can use to predict his next action.

That works.

He stiffens a little - he can't help it - when she says his name. Actually, it's a few seconds afterwards, when she's moved to press her forehead against him and started to repeat it, and he calms them again fairly quickly, but. It's just. She can talk, and god he's been waiting to hear her voice since she got here, and there it is, and it sounds so broken and lost and he can definitely still not handle it. His own voice is tight for a myriad of reasons when he repeats something he's been saying. ]
I'm right here. [ Because he is, and he will be, as long as she needs him to be. But he's not totally over his shock, okay. ] You can talk.
fe_male: You can't be that drunk already. (misc: Maybe I'm a robot.)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-20 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
Honey, you don't have anything to apologize for, okay? [ He sort of, pulls one of his sleeves down a little, to wipe at the blood on her that he can get off without too much fuss. He'd really like the blood to be off of her skin, for some reason that's just, that's really bothering him. So he tries to get what's on her face when she's not talking, holds her fists when she rests them against him, listening while she sort of talks and trying to piece things together without asking questions to make her relive it so soon after the fact.

He knows she pulled away to regain some composure but seeing as how that didn't seem to go that well. ]
Can I hug you again? I'm gonna hug you again, because I'd really like to, okay? Just for me. Letting go of her fists just long enough to wrap his arms around her again, keeping her hands on his chest, just, to hold her. Potentially envelop her, to make sure she's whole still, not at all to potentially give her more of a sense of security. This is, of course, if she doesn't object. ]
fe_male: (erg: hmmmm)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-22 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ He relaxes a little when he feels her relax against him, when he feels the tension ebb from her body and she calms down again. She's not totally calm, and he doesn't doubt that she's far from being okay, but it's nice to know that he can have helped her at least this much.

It doesn't help that he has absolutely no idea what she's talking about. Yeah, he's worried, but mostly about her, and secondarily about whatever it was that she witnessed that left her in this state and allowed her to be covered in blood. He's not sure if there's something or someone outside near the Hold who needs to be caught, if he should stay here with her and help her calm down or if there's potentially someone else out there dying because he decided to be with his girlfriend. Obviously, he's going to stay with his girlfriend - he's a fairly selfish superhero, all things considered - but he'll still feel a little bad about it. ]


I know. [ Wait, what, no he doesn't know. He has no idea what she's talking about. ] What were they doing? Did they hurt you?
fe_male: because he's never trusting it again (what: damn his intuition)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-22 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ Actually he typically also enjoys having another light on. Survival instinct based on knowing that you glow in the dark in a very vulnerable part of your anatomy. He likes to have lights on. Typically also to wear thicker shirts, but in Exsilium sometimes he's had to make do with thinner ones. Besides that, it rains all the time, which doesn't help. But he lets her pull away, lets her fuss, because he suspects it's comforting to them both.

He listens as she... sort of talks about what happened. He's confused about what Jules had to do with things, because as far as he knew, she was Pepper's friend. The time he'd met her he'd felt like it went pretty well, and he's not sure at all about what Pepper would be insinuating. That Jules is dead seems the most likely option. Either that or she's some kind of horrible secret alien thing. He wouldn't put it past someone so cheerful to be the latter. Or the former, really. Who knows.

When she stumbles, he reaches out to catch her the same time she reaches out to him for balance, and he's got one hand solidly under each of her arms now to make sure she won't actually fall down. ]
Yeah, we can sit. C'mon, I'm bushed, let's sit down. [ Leading them both to the nearest thing that's cushioned. ]
fe_male: not even a typo. hissing. like a komodo dragon. (what: someone is hissing in the hall)

[personal profile] fe_male 2013-05-25 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
... She what?

[ That was. So remarkably not what he was expecting to hear. Like, at all. Ever. ] She ate someone? Why did she eat someone? Like... Lecter or Edward type ate someone? [ Sorry Pepper he doesn't have much introspection for that he just doesn't... So, definitely the crazy alien monster idea thing then, apparently. He's not sure how he feels about that.

Although rapidly he switches topics. ]
You're okay, right, she didn't come after you at all? Does she know you saw her?