( the difference is that he does, he really does think it'd be fine for him, except he's been learning to see the ways in which it isn't, but - he's so tired these days, of people dying and causing it and trying and failing, always failing.
but her reaction, like he's said something awful, is what makes him check himself. starts and swallows, shakes his head once without any real emphasis to it - feels like a shake too hard might make him shatter. he's almost never admitted this to anyone before, and it's only now sinking in. )
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but her reaction, like he's said something awful, is what makes him check himself. starts and swallows, shakes his head once without any real emphasis to it - feels like a shake too hard might make him shatter. he's almost never admitted this to anyone before, and it's only now sinking in. )