closed ► you would take the breath from my throat

[fujibayashi]

Date & Time: 6/23, around 5pm.
Location: Room 103.
Characters: Zelos (wilder) and Sheena (holeseeker)
Summary: Sheena's checking in like she promised.
Warnings: Tsunderes and feelings and failure everywhere.


[It's kind of late. Sheena knows this, but she doesn't really care. She hesitates before knocking quietly on the door to Zelos' apartment. Hopefully she can catch him before he's left for the night shift. If not, she'll just leave the food and go, and they can talk later. Or never.

But... there's something nagging at her. She hasn't been entirely reasonable with him lately, and this is the best she can do for an apology.

Her grip on the edges of the covered bowl tightens slightly. She looks to the side, waiting for someone to answer the door.]

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[wilder]

[Ouch. That definitely feels like a punch in the gut. Then again, he probably deserves it for teasing her so much. ]

[He keeps a smile up, but he's pissed enough not to really hold back his own tongue as he states quite lightly]

Haha, well you know...girls like that aren't really into dead guys.

[fujibayashi]

[... Ow. That definitely hurts. He says it because he's kind of immune to it, but he knows how much that hurts Sheena. She couldn't act like that didn't mean anything if she tried, honestly. Her fingers tremble a little bit as they curl into the loose fabric of her tunic.

This time, she bites back her tongue. Maybe she did go too far. He really has changed, huh? He can say stuff like, 'the girls all love me' and whatever else, but when it comes down to it... he's alone.

She has friends here. A precious few, but... at the end of the world, when they're pushing back UE troops, it's always Zelos who comes for her. And she would come for him, too.]

Heh. [She tucks a bit of hair behind her ear.] What does that make me?

[wilder]

[He is still very much immune to his own death, the idea that no one wants to be around a dead dude is something he accepted awhile back. He knew that it upset Sheena (he still didn't fully get why sometimes)- what he said he knew was catty and mean but it was just to get her to back down a little. To stop trying to force that old mask on him when he's made it pretty clear it was gone. He wouldn't say he was maskless (he never is), but to at least stop being the Chosen-]

[But his eyes will widen when she says that remark. 'What does that make me?' after a remark about girls being into him-]

[No way-]

- What?

[He could've heard it wrong right? Could've gotten the wrong idea or something?]

[fujibayashi]

[Wait, what.]

... Uh-- that's not-- I meant I just... I hang around you--

[ABORT ABORT ABORT ABORT]

I-it's not like I'm into you or anything like that. I care about you but that's-- [The blush isn't helping fuck you blush fuck you.] -- that's different, and it's pretty obvious I'm not your type anyway, [a little nervous laugh, not very convincing--] and who really has time to think about stupid stuff like that when you're fighting a war?

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[wilder]

[No, the blushing certainly doesn't help. Nor does the heartbeat, which he's actually listening to for once. Sheena was someone he normally didn't bother with, she was so terribly honest he never felt the need. She couldn't carry a lie to save her life.]

[Just like now. Every single sense could point out that it was a lie.]

[This wasn't...shit. He knows that other guys would be thrilled to hear that maybe the girl they've liked for years likes them back. That's a normal thing to be thrilled about right? But...he wasn't exactly like normal guys.]

[All he'd cause her is pain.]

[wilder]

[And so, time to go with the only merciful thing he can think of-]

Heh, cool it Sheena I get it. I don't think really think you're one of my hunnies, don't sweat it. It's just teasing.

[he has the mask fully back on. From her words again and again tonight it sounds like it was pretty good at fooling her. Heh...he idly wonders if anyone else would feel like screaming doing this. Him? Nah. It's not like he believed in having any chances anyway. Never did. Being dead only cemented that.]

And yeah, you'll get plenty of time to worry about that stuff later when the war's over.

[When he's nothing but a fading memory. It's better that way.]

[fujibayashi]

Y... yeah, just teasing.

[Sheena feels like shrieking. It's not terribly uncommon when she's around Zelos, but to be honest? She's not sure she doesn't have feelings for him and she really doesn't want to dwell on that right now. Because it's a terrible idea. Everything about it is goddamn awful, and everything in her wants to save him, and it's too late.

If she really doesn't care about him, then why... why is her throat so tight?]

... Even after the war's over, I have more important things to worry about. [She's not sure when her grandfather is going to step down, but it's likely to happen within the next two years, since he already named her and everything. Maybe once they're settled in the new world.

How can she think of anything like that when someone who needs her help is right in front of her?]

[wilder]

[...Heh, that sounded like Sheena alright. Put off everything to focus on more "important" things.]

[At least it's gotten a bit away from him. Even if it's a subject about a world he'll never see again. Not his favorite, but more willing to talk about]

Yeah, I guess you guys will be pretty busy. [What with the worlds reunited and everything a giant mess]

But hey, don't put things off forever. Make sure to live your life too, before you become an old maid or something.

[fujibayashi]

[tch] You gotta be kidding.

[She doesn't want to talk about this. She gets up instead, busying herself with putting away the leftover stew.]

I don't like to think too far ahead. What I saw in my future before didn't happen. I mean, I'm glad it didn't happen, but I thought about it for so long that I never tried to change it.

[wilder]

[ha, so that's what makes her get up? Jeez...]

Oh? What did you see in your future before?

[fujibayashi]

[She dumps the leftovers into a dish and looks around for the lid.]

I thought I'd be exiled from my village and... end up dead somehow, probably because someone wanted revenge.

[She's not too proud of that thought.]

That's why, when Kuchinawa demanded that I come with him... I didn't even think twice about it.

[That's why Zelos had to pull her through the gate.]

[wilder]

Oh...right.

[he remembers that, how willing she was to just give up her life like that. How much it pissed him off and freaked him out, even if he was planning on doing the same thing later]

Well, for what it's worth I'm glad you decided not to have that kind of future.

[fujibayashi]

[She was pretty pissed off at /him/, too, until the others came in and reminded her of what Colette went through.

Though his statement is quiet, it means a lot. She might call him a friend but he doesn't-- really say stuff like that, not frequently. Only when it counts. Her hands hesitate around the edges of the lid, and then she presses it down to lock the container.]

I'm not sure it was something I chose. It just... happened.

[She had no idea the journey would go the way it did.]

Anyway... There's plenty to worry about right in front of me, right now, so...

[wilder]

Heh...yeah, guess it did.

[He rubs the back of his neck, feeling a bit awkward after saying something nice like that. But...he can take a guess what some of the things to worry about it]

Sorry. I'm sure I've caused you a lot of worries.

[fujibayashi]

[Sheena looks at him with a mild expression. Surprisingly, she smiles.]

No more than usual.

[It's just how they are. Even if they have hiccups like... a minute ago.

She slides a hand into the back of her obi and pulls out the tablet. A brief glance at the digital clock tells her that it's getting kind of late. If she's not back for dinner, Axel and Riku might go looking for her or something. Honestly? She's kind of exhausted. Talking to Zelos is always exhausting in a way, but she keeps saying the wrong thing...

She gently pushes in her chair, fingers lingering across the top of the wood.]

I should probably head back. [A pause.] Um, if you need anything...

[God, she's so bad at this.]

[wilder]

[Whoa, a smile. He can't help but stare a little bit at it and-]

[- Ah no. We are not going down that road. It doesn't matter what he picked up a few minutes ago, we are not-]

[He'll clear his throat, forcing himself to snap out of anything, before giving a lazy smile back]

Aha- right. Your roommates might start to worry.

[need anything? Jeez-] Uh- yeah, right across the hall! I know where you are.

[fujibayashi]

[... He probably knows where she is all the time, if he can hear when she's coming and going. ... That's a little weird. We're not going to think about that, okay.]

Right. Stay off that leg, okay?

[This is so damn awkward. She doesn't wait for him to show her the door-- considering he's on crutches-- but she gives him one last wave before leaving the apartment.

She has a lot to think about.]

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[wilder]

[Sheena if he listened all the time he'd be in such a bitchy mood all the time from the constant headache.]

[Then again maybe that is part of his bitchy mood. Living in an apartment complex SUCKS]

Heh, I will....thanks, for coming by.

[He'll give her a wave as she leaves the apartment.]

[wilder]

[And then the moment she's gone and the door is closed? That waving hand turns and smacks his forehead before covering his face with it]

...This is not good.