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Haruto Souma ✩ 操真晴人 ([personal profile] ringwizard) wrote in [community profile] exsiliumlogs2013-07-01 02:00 am

last despair calls first hope

Date & Time: July 2nd & 3rd
Location: Initiative Library, Room 701, around the apartments
Characters: Haruto Souma ([personal profile] ringwizard), Kousuke Nitoh ([personal profile] ringbeast), Oriko Mikuni ([personal profile] precludes)
Summary: Haruto witches out gets the d(espair) hits his breaking point, becomes despair monster.
Warnings: Upupupupu. Depression, despair, a dickbag monster, at least one fight, Chimaera being a tool, references to mass murders, references to not so mass murders, possibly suicidal ideation, character death. Oriko's sense of priorities.


Haruto leaves the Initiative's Hold early in the morning with a certain spring to his step. He's gotten a little tan--his time in 2050 had done him some good, a lingering scrape on the back of his right hand aside, and it's obvious. Being back in the city again leaves a lingering malaise to his mood, but he forces it away. With things to be done all around, he's got to keep moving forward, right? There's a lot of hustle and bustle outside the Hold with the still-lingering confusion of new arrivals, as far as he can tell, and he steps around people talking as he opens his tablet and messages Nitoh.

Are you still asleep?
ringbeast: (yr jokin right?)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
"Nah he's way shorter than you," Nitoh says offhand, looking around. "Man, it's a shame they haven't digitized all these books yet."

He pokes through the books, trying to remind himself of the title. "What was the book you wanted? Post-Olympic something? Are you sure it wouldn't be in Eastern Europe?"
ringbeast: (puzzling it out)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 04:20 am (UTC)(link)
"Sure, I'll look." He jogs around the corner and starts to read the titles. He kneels down and taps them. After a moment, he calls out over the wall. "Was it 'Russo-Spanish Politics in the post-Olympic era,' cos I found that one!"
ringbeast: (yeah I like u)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
"Comin'." he murmurs, sliding the book off the shelf. He skims the back of the book as he walks over, not really finding anything altogether objectionable there.

He hands it to Haruto. "Here you go. Stroke your ego."
ringbeast: (aw hell naw)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
Nitoh sees the expression on Haruto's face change as he reads aloud, and that almost gets to him more than the words. That deep, pained look in his eyes returns as if it had never left. Nitohs mouth falls open and he tries to grab Haruto's hands to keep the book from falling. "Hey, hey!"

He kneels down to pick up the book and flips back to page 67, reading for himself... "That can't be it, that can't-" That's it, though. Most of the people who Haruto had helped had died not long after. "Why the hell would they send you on a mission like that?!" He shouts, outraged.

He stands up, setting the book on a nearby table and looking at Haruto. "Hey..." he says again, more softly. His urge is to hold onto Haruto, but sensitive moments like this take a little more care. He stays silent and just watches him, mouth curved in a small bow of sorrow.
ringbeast: (im sorry wha?)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
He watches Haruto's expressions shift and change and he can't even be sure what it is he's seeing. When Haruto meets his eyes, something there is unsettling. But he puts it out of his mind, reaching a hand forward just as Haruto turns away.

He jumps back when the chair goes over. "Woah, Haruto..." He wants to say, calm down, he wants to say it's not that bad. But he knows that Haruto, of all people, cannot possibly take something like this lying down. "Look... It's... It's gonna be okay. Don't--" he moves forward, trying to put his hands on Haruto's shoulders, to stop him from pulling his hair out.
ringbeast: (not good.)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
He pulls his hands back, taken aback by the emotion in Haruto's voice. He feels compelled to do... something, but the last time he saw Haruto even remotely like this, all he could do was get out of the way. At least he picked the chair back up, that was a promising sign, right?

The wince doesn't escape him, though its meaning does. He peers at Haruto's face for some sign. "What... What did? What do you mean?" He heard what Haruto had read, but the totality of its meaning escaped him. The alternative, that he was talking about himself somehow, that he was talking about Dragon, was too terrible to consider.
ringbeast: (sometimes i get sad)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
He gets it now. But even Haruto couldn't have ferreted out every last one of them in two weeks. He couldn't have known that second attack would happen. He grits his teeth. "Look, I-" but the look on Haruto's face silences him. Under the weight of that gaze, he's nervous, he's nauseous, he knows something is going wrong.

"I- I'll go with you," he says, "I'm not gonna let you be all alone." He raises his hand. "I know, I know, don't say it. I promise I'll be quiet."
ringbeast: (:U)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 09:52 am (UTC)(link)
He follows along behind, panting a little bit with the strain of keeping up with Haruto, who seems to be running from something. When he says that, Nitoh feels a lump in his throat. "I... uh," he starts, but he has nothing useful to follow it up with.

After a moment of thought, it dawns on him. "Look, Haruto, you can just go back to the Initiative and ask for more time there, right? Just tell them you found out you left something undone and go back like you never left and kick the guys who did this in the face, right?" He holds onto to Haruto's shoulder as he tries to keep up. "You can still be their hope! You can still fix it, that's what time travel's for, isn't it?"
Edited 2013-07-02 09:52 (UTC)
ringbeast: (no dont)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 10:12 am (UTC)(link)
"S...Sure, but..." he feels the dark cloud around Haruto descending over him, too, but he shakes it off. "You can just push it, warn them, tell them to be a little less trusting, you know? I'll come too, I can help!"

"You gotta go to the source this time! You know there's always hope, no matter how dark it looks! You can't just say it's unsaveable because someone else told you so...!" He sounds a little lame, a little defeated as he says, "It's not like you, man..."
ringbeast: (hey i got feelings too)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, that's it..." he says, sounding almost too relieved. He's still tense, still worried about Haruto, but at least this time he was able to redirect it a little bit. "Then we can really break some hearts, right?" He laughs, but it rings false and his expression returns to a solemn one as soon as it's over.

"I could go right now, too, it's not like I got any plans for the next couple days. If you feel like resting here for a little bit, I can do that too, I'm not picky." He's babbling now, trying to get things back to normal a little bit, just a little bit. "It's time travel, right?" He gives a weak laugh.
ringbeast: (it smarts yeah)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-02 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
He breathes a small sigh of relief, and bangs Haruto on the back a couple times. "Yeah, that's right. That's right." He doesn't smile, so much as grimaces awkwardly, as he follows Haruto towards the Hold. He hopes quietly that they let them go, because he's not sure how Haruto would handle it if they didn't.
ringbeast: (almost presentable)

[personal profile] ringbeast 2013-07-03 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh..." he feels a little nervous about it, but he nods and hangs back. "Got it, sure." He clears his throat and crosses his arms, looking at the Initiative workers around him with a jaundiced eye.

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