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exsiliumlogs2013-07-03 06:38 pm
revolutionized) wrote in exsiliumlogs2013-07-03 06:38 pm
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did you set your sights upon a target moving?
Date & Time: June 12th; backdated to a little after this bickering baby conversation.
Location: Room 602!
Characters: Utena & Nanami
Summary: Stupid sad sick children.
Warnings: Probably nothing will come up this time but just in case your standard warnings for Utena: discussion of incest, abuse, exploitation of minors, trauma, etc. Your standard things. Hopefully the kitten thing doesn't come up (i am sorry for this canon).
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Utena limits her visits to Nanami. They'd bump into one another here and there, but she and the youngest Kiryuu had never really gotten on very well (to be fair, this was true of Touga too) and so she kept her distance.
But Nanami was the only one from Ohtori here, and she was, as far as Utena could hear over the network, very ill. She had never been around anyone who was sick, and was rarely sick herself, but as the days had gone on, the streets had gotten emptier, and everyone had gotten worse. This, like the overall atmosphere of Exsilium itself, rested heavily on her spirits. She had thought too much of this lately, human life, and the impermanence of it, and so she consciously does not think too deeply on what the empty streets mean, or even her own persistent cough and unshakable exhaustion. It was easier to think of other things.
She's got her scarf tucked halfway over her mouth, both to prevent the spread of germs and to hide how clammy she looks, but she can do nothing about the sore throat and the fever-brightness to her eyes. It couldn't be helped.
It takes her a little longer than usual to get to Nanami's apartment, and she rubs at her temples before knocking, as if expecting a headache before it arrives.
"Nanami-kun," Utena raps against the door with the back of her knuckles once, then again. "It's me. I brought tea for you and your roommate."
Location: Room 602!
Characters: Utena & Nanami
Summary: Stupid sad sick children.
Warnings: Probably nothing will come up this time but just in case your standard warnings for Utena: discussion of incest, abuse, exploitation of minors, trauma, etc. Your standard things. Hopefully the kitten thing doesn't come up (i am sorry for this canon).
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Utena limits her visits to Nanami. They'd bump into one another here and there, but she and the youngest Kiryuu had never really gotten on very well (to be fair, this was true of Touga too) and so she kept her distance.
But Nanami was the only one from Ohtori here, and she was, as far as Utena could hear over the network, very ill. She had never been around anyone who was sick, and was rarely sick herself, but as the days had gone on, the streets had gotten emptier, and everyone had gotten worse. This, like the overall atmosphere of Exsilium itself, rested heavily on her spirits. She had thought too much of this lately, human life, and the impermanence of it, and so she consciously does not think too deeply on what the empty streets mean, or even her own persistent cough and unshakable exhaustion. It was easier to think of other things.
She's got her scarf tucked halfway over her mouth, both to prevent the spread of germs and to hide how clammy she looks, but she can do nothing about the sore throat and the fever-brightness to her eyes. It couldn't be helped.
It takes her a little longer than usual to get to Nanami's apartment, and she rubs at her temples before knocking, as if expecting a headache before it arrives.
"Nanami-kun," Utena raps against the door with the back of her knuckles once, then again. "It's me. I brought tea for you and your roommate."
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The flippancy is more automatic than intentional. Utena tries not to lean against the door frame. She appears worn out, a little pale, and vaguely annoyed, but the illness has not progressed enough to make her look seriously ill. She's grateful for at least that.
"Are you gonna let me in?" It would be a waste to have come here, only to be turned away. She's tired too, and needs to sit down for a little while. Just long enough to get some energy back.
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Nanami steps back to let her in, not even staying at the door long enough to close it behind Utena. She goes to the couch immediately, pulling her knees up and leaning into the cushions. She's wearing a nightgown, her hair kept down, and on the sofa she looks a little toy-like, very small.
"Some girl came by and did...something. For the coughing." This is by far the most lacking description anyone has ever given of Sayaka, but it's hard to make her stick in Nanami's memory. She isn't healthy, really, after all, just feeling a little better by incidence.
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She looked about as tired as Utena felt. "I guess you can find her later. Are you feeling any better?" She sets two thermoses on the table — one has the tea, the other has soup (it's a little flat, flavor-wise, but edible).
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Sayaka had been plenty nosy, and optimistic, but upfront about the temporary relief. Nanami turns onto her side so she can stare at Utena and the thermoses, worrying at her pale lower lip.
"It could be worse," she says flatly. "I feel better but I know I'm not getting better."
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Utena watches Nanami for a moment, her expression unusually thoughtful and solemn, and then heads for where she believes the kitchen to be. "Hmm...do you guys have cups and mugs?"
Nanami doesn't look good. It bothers Utena — she isn't really comfortable enough to call it worry, but it's troublesome, all the same.
ok there
But then, if magic is a thing, is a real thing, is it any surprise that it would favor people like Utena? Maybe she'd heal miraculously; another thing she doesn't deserve, another handout for Utena Tenjou.
Being sick does nothing for her mental state.
"Of course we do," Nanami says irritably. "We don't live like animals. They're" she sighs. "They're over the sink. Jeez! If my brother was here..."
She hasn't mentioned Touga aloud in months. Nanami freezes.
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The mugs are found — how Nanami has managed to find what is likely the only yellow mug in Exsilium is beyond her — and she's on her way back into the living room when Touga is mentioned.
She hasn't thought about him in months, and Nanami, who was so obsessed with him, hadn't mentioned him either. That's odd.
"What about him? You really think he'd be able to handle a place like this?" Touga, with his girls and fancy parties. Touga, who had gone into hiding after his second duel. He was clever, so maybe...but this world wasn't his style at all.
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She can't even remember half of the conversation she had with Sayaka, now - she can look at her post on the network, maybe, but the other holes are impossible to fill.
She is embarrassed, in reflection, to have said anything at all, but the fear is still there and it seeps into her response.
"I don't want him here.
"...But if he was, if he knew I was sick, maybe I'd have someone to take care of me. Even if he was just faking."
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She focuses on this process as she tries to make sense of what Nanami was saying. What had happened? "You don't think he cares about you?" She can't even fathom it. "C'mon. He's a jerk sometimes, but isn't that a little dramatic?"
There was something wrong with this. "Did something happen? You've barely mentioned him at all."
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The outburst is not as loud as it could be, thanks to the rawness in her throat. Even then, it seems to surprise even her. Nanami's failed to reconcile that Utena is from a place where she really doesn't understand.
She clasps one hand across her mouth, staring down at her bent knees.
"I thought I could get away from it, so why..."
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Utena's expression clouds. She pushes Nanami's teacup over to her, contemplates something, and then speaks up again. "He did? ...When? Did he tell you before you showed up here?"
i miss you utena that's why i'll tag you
But what if Utena is faking? What if she's just pretending not to know, to laugh at her? Her head's still half on backwards.
"He said he only ever pretended to care about me for our parents' sake..." Nanami looks up at her through the fringe of her loose bangs, willing herself to shut up. "You probably love hearing this, don't you?"
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Her eyes have gone very wide. She frowns, bothered and unsettled by this new information, and shakes her head. "What a terrible thing to say. Did you two have some kind of fight?"
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She doesn't even know if what they had could't as one. Her face still stings from Keiko's slap, it seems. But she had shown Keiko; that girl still had to answer to her; they would go on pretending and pretending that things had not changed at all after he'd put a block on her transfer.
She isn't sure what matters more - that in the end she'd tried to reclaim that authority or that, in the end, it's all fake.
"I thought he was my prince," she says.
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"He shouldn't have said that," she says instead. She's quiet, at first, but her voice gains strength as she continues. It makes her angry to think about. Even a sister that was as difficult as Nanami probably was...she was still his family. You didn't treat family like that. "I don't care what kind of fight you guys had."
After a while: "I'm sorry, Nanami."
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She wonders if Touga will hear if she dies up here, and be happy about it. She takes a bite of soup, agonizingly, as if opening her mouth to eat anything is killing her, and pulls a face.
"I can't taste this at all." It's possible her tongue is burning, though.
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It felt like some sort of piece was missing. She's distracted by this thought when Nanami speaks up again.
"Huh? ...Oh, yeah." The soup, right. "Hey, don't complain. I'm still learning how to cook, and I can't taste things much right now."