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exsiliumlogs2013-08-02 04:01 pm
reconnaissance) wrote in exsiliumlogs2013-08-02 04:01 pm
(closed) often I lie wide awake
Date & Time: various throughout August.
Location: also various.
Characters: Ellie Linton & the poor suckers she plagues.
Summary: MANY THINGS just trying not to spam like a beast. Thread starters in comments.
Warnings: Ellie standard issue: PTSD, probably mentions of war/death/violence and language. I'll add if anything else comes up.
( So, six months ago Ellie Linton arrived in Exsilium with a fruit knife and bad temper.
She's lost the fruit knife, still has the temper, but that's just about softened off a little.
Fiona has been and gone; she misses the others like crazy, about as bad as her parents. She'd never have expected that. Even if they were like a second family, missing Homer or Fiona that much just hadn't occurred to her. That they aren't here is so difficult, but now she's got Steph and Collette, Cedric, the people who'd be ranked right up with the others. Exsilium has decent people that pull together, and sometimes she wonders what it would be like if she never had to go home.
If her parents could be here, and her mates from home, maybe she'd actually go for it. )
Location: also various.
Characters: Ellie Linton & the poor suckers she plagues.
Summary: MANY THINGS just trying not to spam like a beast. Thread starters in comments.
Warnings: Ellie standard issue: PTSD, probably mentions of war/death/violence and language. I'll add if anything else comes up.
( So, six months ago Ellie Linton arrived in Exsilium with a fruit knife and bad temper.
She's lost the fruit knife, still has the temper, but that's just about softened off a little.
Fiona has been and gone; she misses the others like crazy, about as bad as her parents. She'd never have expected that. Even if they were like a second family, missing Homer or Fiona that much just hadn't occurred to her. That they aren't here is so difficult, but now she's got Steph and Collette, Cedric, the people who'd be ranked right up with the others. Exsilium has decent people that pull together, and sometimes she wonders what it would be like if she never had to go home.
If her parents could be here, and her mates from home, maybe she'd actually go for it. )
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( She's not so good at this. Still, her voice is quiet, calm, and she nudges Steph's knees apart so she can kneel in front of her, hands sliding down Steph's arms. )
Hey. You're putting yourself through the wringer again, Steph.
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[She will be, but she hates that she isn't okay now, because it means that Nikolai got to her, that he won with his stupid fucking games and trying to manipulate her.
She knows she's putting herself through the wringer, as Ellie puts it, but she doesn't know how to stop.]
This stuff isn't supposed to get to me.
[Not anymore. She's tired of being scared.]
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Bullshit. You're a detective, Steph. If this stuff didn't get to you, you wouldn't be human, and that'd make for a pretty shitty detective. You gotta have empathy, right?
( Firmly, but not harsh, not heavy with the judgment she slings about so easily. It's different, for Steph. )
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It shouldn't get to me like this. It shouldn't make me useless.
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( Okay, all right. She's going to ease back from her place on the floor, stepping onto the bed and claiming a place behind Steph, pulling her back into a hug. )
He was a piece of work. ( And all the times Ellie wasn't having fits of rage and going into meltdowns, back home, she was tearing herself up internally. After that, she felt like she was losing pieces. ) It's better to have reactions to stuff.
( More softly, spoken against Steph's shoulder. )