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exsiliumlogs2013-11-21 11:24 pm
gevurah) wrote in exsiliumlogs2013-11-21 11:24 pm
and it goes with where you go
Date & Time: 11/22 / 6:30am
Location: cafeteria
Characters: collette & kate
Summary: tea and breakfast and maybe they'll pretend they have english accents or roleplay as break and gilbert.
Warnings: sadness??
[ Kate barely slept the hours before her breakfast date with Collette. Every couple of hours of rest broken by discomforting twists in her dreams and at one point waking up with a throbbing headache. She doesn't like to take pills, but she pops one so she can actually maintain her focus when seeing Collette.
She showers and slips into her usual black T-shirt and the nice red jeans she's managed to cling to her time so far in Exsilium and strolls into the cafeteria, keeping an eye out for Collette, her chest tight with apprehension. They've finally begun to speak again, but Kate's steered cautiously in their conversations, not out to instigate a fight or upset Collette in any way. There's been enough fighting between Transports for the week. She doesn't say much, just enough to let the other know she wants to try.
If Renee hadn't been sent back, maybe she wouldn't have realized some things needed fixing.
It's impossible to miss that shade of red in the middle of the cafeteria, but Kate waves anyway to signal Collette. ]
'Morning.
Location: cafeteria
Characters: collette & kate
Summary: tea and breakfast and maybe they'll pretend they have english accents or roleplay as break and gilbert.
Warnings: sadness??
[ Kate barely slept the hours before her breakfast date with Collette. Every couple of hours of rest broken by discomforting twists in her dreams and at one point waking up with a throbbing headache. She doesn't like to take pills, but she pops one so she can actually maintain her focus when seeing Collette.
She showers and slips into her usual black T-shirt and the nice red jeans she's managed to cling to her time so far in Exsilium and strolls into the cafeteria, keeping an eye out for Collette, her chest tight with apprehension. They've finally begun to speak again, but Kate's steered cautiously in their conversations, not out to instigate a fight or upset Collette in any way. There's been enough fighting between Transports for the week. She doesn't say much, just enough to let the other know she wants to try.
If Renee hadn't been sent back, maybe she wouldn't have realized some things needed fixing.
It's impossible to miss that shade of red in the middle of the cafeteria, but Kate waves anyway to signal Collette. ]
'Morning.
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( She wants to know.
Before all she ever does is work with small groups, she wants to know. )
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[ It's the truth, along with some sort of admission of guilt. ]
We're too disorganized and as long as the Transporter stays online and brings in more disoriented civilians, the harder it'll become.
[ What happens when they've amassed nearly a thousand confused people? ]
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[ In desperate times when it needed a bug to be fixed. ]
How many more children and civilians can we pull into this, Collette?
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She sits up straighter, hands on the parts of what makes Kate the sort of thing you should fear in the night, if you're the sort of person others should wish to avoid. )
How many more children and civilians have already died because of what no one here has been able to do? How many worlds destroyed? Three hundred, four hundred lives that get interrupted versus the ones that all get to end 'cause some bigger guy on the playground decided he wanted all their stuff?
We don't have a choice in being here. I don't like the Initiative, and I don't like anything going on here. I'm not going to sit back and wonder about the ethics on this side of things when we're already scrambling so hard after what the United Earth has been doing for the last year. We should be keeping those kinds of people safe, and not just -- thinking we can stop that altogether. It's not the biggest problem! It sucks, it's really bad, but it's not the biggest one here!
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I was twelve when my life was interrupted.
[ Sometimes, she can stand tall and proud, fearless in the face of danger. She has to be.
But then she remembers the fear that gripped her when those masked men came for her, her mother, her sister, and how badly put together she is sometimes as a result. Broken pieces glued together in spite of fragments that no longer fit each other.
Sometimes in heart, she fears more will end up like her. It's selfish and self-projecting, but it's a real fear that might eat her alive. ]
What do you think is?
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( Se doesn't know how to say such complicated things, gesturing with her hands as she talks. It feels like saying, yes, it's fine to let places leave. End. Disappear.
It's not. It really isn't. That could be her world, everything she and her friends gave up for nothing, all because of something out of the blue like this?
No thanks. No thanks, none at all! )
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She hasn't forgotten. Before Elmer's world was decimated, the threat had seemed distant, almost unreal, only to be proven very real when she stepped into a world where charred flesh and ash stunk to high hell. She's seen so much in her few years doing this, but that scene had been tough to swallow. ]
I promised Elmer we would save his world.
[ A wistful sigh escapes her. ]
If I knew how to unite us, I would.
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[ She can't contain all her frustration, so there's traces of it in her response. ]
Communication is a problem. I don't trust the Goodman's group to help with that anymore.
[ Not after the way he acted during the mutiny. ]
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minus "the" unless suddenly saul's got a musical group!! THE GOODMEN.
[ Given they've only spoken once, she's not too sure what name she prefers to go by. ]
maybe he does tho
( Collette doesn't know. )
But yeah,
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[ Unfortunately, she can be quite judgmental. ]
I was brigade executive officer back in the academy. [ She was going to graduate First Captain. ] You know about the BTD, right? Brigade Tactical Department; they're responsible for daily command and discipline of the Corps of Cadets.
[ She was so organized and meticulous back home. It's hard to stop thinking like that breed of soldier. ]
There's only a handful of people I know I can work with so far.
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( She says quickly, fingers tapping against the metal under her hands. )
You have a few. That's a start! You don't need everyone like that, you just need enough space and breathing room that maybe others will listen.
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[ It's still jarring to work in groups, but it's vital, she knows.
She motions to the cups. ]
We should drink before it gets too cold.
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Yeah. I'd hate to let that happen.
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It's perfect.
[ After a moment of silence: ]
I'll do everything I can while I'm here.
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I think that's the best any of us can promise. So... I'll do that, too. Or keep doing it!
( Her lips twitch up a little. She holds her mug in one hand, extending her other to Kate, pinky out. )
Pinky promise?
( It's a tentative teasing sincerity. You promise, I promise -- see where it takes us. )
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A faint chuckle escapes her and her arm extends, curling all fingers but her pinky and hooking it around Collete's. ]
Pinky promise.
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A promise is a promise, no matter the silly means of making it. She'll remember.
For now...
There is the tea, and that is enough. )