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make a new plan, Stan. ([personal profile] lazyinlove) wrote in [community profile] exsiliumlogs2013-11-25 02:29 pm

C'est la mort. (Open)

Date & Time:Tonight, around 7.
Location:The viewing windows.
Characters:Anyone who knew Peace or who might stop to pay respects at a memorial even if they didn't know her.
Summary:A memorial gathering for an Exsile who ceased to exist with the most recent world change.
Warnings:Tears, cursing, bitterness? Not sure yet. People can label threads as they come up. Everyone is free to make their own and jump around. Prose and action are both fine.


It's a waste of emergency torches, but there are a few set up around anyway, lit that soft unearthly blue of emergency lighting. The flowers are paper, clumsily folded from discharge sheets, some from the prison, some from the clinic. There are no photos. All of the ones she was in before are empty spaces, or pictures of Stanley or others who'd been holding her at the time. The music is strings, playing softly from a haphazardly tossed tablet. There are no chairs. Instead, every pillow from 144 is on the ground as seating.

Stanley isn't sitting on one, though. He's standing at the window, staring down at the planet so far below. Today, he's combed his hair. It's still in his eyes because it's too long, but he's made the effort to tame it at any rate.

He's not sure how to start things off, but if someone shows up he'll greet them. That's what you do, right? So that's what he does.

"Thanks for coming."
gevurah: ([muffled rap music in the bg])

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-07 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
It's not a bad thing to be a kid. There are responsibilities that shouldn't fall on them, especially here, but that's not the case.

[ To protect, to fight, to save lives when they don't fully understand moral obligations. ]

Have you lied to others about this?
reassures: (flicker ☙ you can hide underneath me)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-07 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Nill doesn't always understand Kate's way of thinking.]

Only the people that asked.
gevurah: (what is consistent characterization)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-07 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
You owe them the truth then.

[ A big or small lie, you're always supposed to answer for it. That's what her mother taught her. ]
reassures: (fade ☙ stardust to remember you by)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-07 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a moment of thoughtful hesitation, before Nill frowns slightly. Her wings fold in a little closer to her back.]

I don't remember all the people I told that to.

[She'd told Kaneis - she remembered that, because he was one of the people glad to see not everyone here was a kid. But the others... She hadn't really thought about it. She's been lying about her age since the Port, and though she hadn't like it, it was necessary. It hadn't been a lot, but she just... didn't remember who had asked.]
gevurah: (jeez dad)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-07 06:26 am (UTC)(link)
The ones you can.

[ Her voice is quiet enough so the conversation only carries between the two of them. ]

If you want people to treat you with respect, you have to do the same for them.

[ And the truth is good way of that. ]
reassures: (fade ☙ you were my home)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-07 06:39 am (UTC)(link)
[She's... fairly certain she told Stan that, too. Which probably hadn't been necessary - he was younger than she was, but at that point it wasn't so much about lying as it was keeping her story straight with everyone.

It had never been about disrespecting anyone. It was just... getting by. It was necessary in Siren's Port when she needed to stop attending school.

Thinking on it now though, she wasn't sure she'd ever actually needed to do that here.

She doesn't bother to type up a reply. Instead, she simply nods. She could do that.]
gevurah: (/throws hand-me-downs at)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-07 10:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ That's as much as Kate can ask from her. While it's not a huge deal and it wasn't meant to hurt anyone, there's no telling what other lies she's fed others for the sake of appearances. She doesn't press for now, but she keeps it in mind. ]

Then you can preserve your integrity.

[ It almost sounds rehearsed, like she's heard it somewhere before. She has. ]
reassures: (fade ☙ her eyes are dark now)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-09 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
[You know... It's the first time Nill's every heard anyone talk about integrity, let alone putting value in it. It's a strange thought.]

Is integrity important to you?
gevurah: (terrible jason/tim fic)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-09 09:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ She seems to ease up a touch. ]

Always. [ A beat. ] My mother was the one who taught me when you do wrong, you have to answer for it.
reassures: (cut ☙ she's so still; she's dead)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-10 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
[Ah. So a lie, even a small one, was "wrong" in Kate's eyes.

Nill's known a lot of liars - and it was very rare that they actually lied to do someone harm, although people like that existed as well. Lying was a necessity, frequently well-intended, even if it ended horribly. It was never wrong, just... painful.]


Is a lie always doing wrong?
gevurah: (payback is healthy)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-10 09:50 am (UTC)(link)
It is, even if there are good intentions behind it.

[ She's not a bastion of perfection herself; she's had to toss the little white lies here and there to ensure her identity was protected, but more importantly, that ones who could get hurt were safe as well. ]
reassures: (dim ☙ to ivory)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-10 10:02 am (UTC)(link)
[It sounds like something Kate has experience with. Especially that little tidbit - "ensure her identity was protected". She mostly chalks it up to someone else using the ease of the system here to change their name, like Kaneis. If that's the case, then Nill can respect it. Even if it does seem... slightly hypocritical.]

I never knew that.
gevurah: (what is consistent characterization)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-10 10:07 am (UTC)(link)
It can be complicated.

[ Like what happened with her father. ]
reassures: (fade ☙ beg for you to let me in)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-12-11 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
[Unsure of what else to say, Nill nods. It seemed like most things involving the truth were complicated.]

I'm going to go check on Stanley.

[Which is, you know, a not very subtle way of finishing up the conversation. She offers Kate a very, very slight smile, before walking over to wherever Stan is atm.]
gevurah: (mismatched floor designs)

[personal profile] gevurah 2013-12-11 09:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ She nods and lets her walk off, waving in farewell before turning her own attention back to whatever else has been laid out for the memorial. ]