I didn't want them to know it was suicide. D'you know what that does to a person? Hearing that someone you cared about, someone you loved made that choice? I didn't believe it at first — I even had Roslyn investigate, but she didn't find anything. Mike doesn't know where you got the drugs, either. He said you were fine, and then —

[And then Jesse was gone.

Saul looks down, shivering. Why are they having this conversation outside?]