exsiliumlogs | a happy end

Date & Time: January 15th through January 22nd
Location: Around the town, various winter locations.
Characters: Kaworu & you! plus, separate log with Shinji Ikari inside.
Summary: Kaworu has moved permanently back to Earth from the moonbase. He hasn't met with many of his friends for a while, and he wants to see how they're doing as he explores.
Warnings: will update if necessary. Also, either prose or brackets is fine.

[ open to all, 17th - 22nd]

It's even colder here now than it was earlier in the winter, but the physiological effects pass him over. His body might be shaped like a human's, but his biology is not. For as much as that fact has shaped his life, for the moment it was proving useful - allowing him to mingle with a local population that he's heard is fairly hostile to more otherworldly people.

His first days here were devoted entirely to catching up with his beloved, but after settling in he was reminded of the longing he felt for his other friends. It hasn't been just Shinji who enriched his heart since he was first brought here, but all the others too, and he hasn't forgot about them. With the help of his tablet, he slowly begins sending out short, polite invitations to meet him near the center of town where he sits, waiting. A brown paper bag is at his side, the top curled down to hide its contents.

Even if they don't respond, he doesn't mind. Time means nothing at all, and he's content to pass a few minutes here anyway, watching residents pass. Perhaps fate would even bring him a new acquaintance.

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[See, she's used to people not totally being truthful about that. Usually a second ask will get the whole truth out of them, whether they mean to or not, but when it comes to Kaworu... well, he probably doesn't think anything of it to begin with. Especially if he can't get sick.

For a moment she seems uncertain of what to do, but she takes his hand. After another few seconds of debating, she thinks of a good place to take him. Nill offers a thumbs up with her free hand and a smile, before pulling him away from the fountain and in the direction of a good place.

After a few seconds, Nill pulls her tablet out again, even as they're walking, and she somehow manages to type on it effortlessly even while guiding them.]

Have you ever heard of telepathy?

[The cheery thumbs up is returned, although when Kaworu does it looks a little strange, like a foreigner trying to participate in a custom he isn't completely familiar with. But immediately thereafter he allows her to pull him along, content with spending some time with her.

He sees her pull her tablet back out and anticipates the text. His was still grasped in his other hand; that he'd need it to converse with her was a given.]

Telepathy? You mean speaking through one's mind? Yes, I know of the concept... why? Are you becoming a psychic, Nill?

[Nill had difficulty with a thumbs up when she first learned it, too. She mostly just seems happy that he goes along with it.

She's pretty used to pulling her tablet out of her pocket as needed. It's almost as second-nature to her as fluttering her wings is. It's easy and fast, and she hardly thinks of it anymore.]

I don't think psychic is the right word. I can't see the future.

[She looked into it a little, back when she had an actual internet connection.]

But-- I can speak like that.

[He stares at her for a moment, searching her eyes for any dishonesty. Nill is... telepathic? Like Blue, then? Like Physis was?

Interest grew on his face and he tipped his head, studying her much closely now.]

Truly...? Since when?

[and why the texting...? he could only assume she is about to explain, but...]

[He won't find any dishonesty there. Telepathic is about the right word for it. She's not sure if it's different lately, since she can move things too if she tries. Did that classify it differently? She should probably ask someone familiar with comic books.]

A few years. In another world it was a mutation-- here it's a weapon.

It's not usually very safe to tell people about it.

Why not? There are many others here who are like you.

[He normally speaks very calmly, but as he looks at her now, he's speaking with gentle encouragement, too. That Nill could speak to others this entire time, but chose to awkwardly sent written messages instead... and for what - fear...? This information makes him feel a new kind of affection for her, but more importantly, it's caught his insatiable curiosity.]

I wish you had told me sooner.

I didn't want the Initiative to pay more attention to me than they needed to.

[It's very rarely safe, especially in regard to some of the stuff she used to be capable of. She'd known there were other people in Exsilium who were like her as well, but...]

...I was afraid of the others. I didn't know what they would see in me.

[The voice in his head is soft and quiet, and though it doesn't sound particularly feminine or masculine, it definitely sounds like Nill.]

I'm sorry for not telling you until now.

Don't be sorry for me. [he's smiling again, impressed at her apology.] You ought to take better care of your own heart, you know.

[Maybe there's much more to Nill than Kaworu yet knew. If she's confessing this to him after being so afraid to hide it in the first place, there must be some level of trust she's willing to lend.]

What do you mean by "mutation" and "weapon"?

[She does trust him. It's mostly a feeling she gets from him, but it's like he doesn't really judge people. He'd been very good to her every time they had talked up until now, and he didn't seem like the type that would tell anyone about this if she didn't want him to.

She tucks her tablet back into her pocket, no longer needing it, before lifting her free hand to her chest. Her heart...

She remembers a conversation they had had a long while ago-- maybe the first one they'd had, and it was part of why she trusted him. "What if you don't like what you're becoming?"

And he said that it was never too late to change.]

I've been in worlds like this before. One of them changed the people that came there. If they were normal, they developed mutations-- things that gave them powers. Mine was like this, but it was more complicated. I could never turn it off.

When I was brought here, I found that it was gone. So when the Initiative asked me what I wanted my weapon to be, I told them I would be the weapon. I wanted something that couldn't be taken from me, and I was given this.

So, the Initiative gave it to you.

[That's clever - a clever way to take advantage of their captor's requirements. Kaworu goes silent as his mind digests everything she's said, his hands sliding comfortably into his coat pockets.]

But it's also what you requested from them, although it made you fearful of others. Why?

[the why can apply however she interpreted it - why choose it, or why be fearful.]

Yes. From what I can tell, they don't know the extent of what I can do. I was careful to make sure they didn't know how it evolved.

[She spares a glance around them, to make sure no one is really paying attention, before clasping her hands behind her back. It'll look funny if he's responding to someone that's not talking, but no one really seems to care.]

I was weak without it.

Before I had this ability, I could never protect anyone. I learned how to fight a little, but not enough-- Many of the people that I loved were hurt or killed. Without it there was so much less I could do.

I have a place I need to try to get back to. I needed to be strong to do that-- and I've seen worlds where people that are different are taken away, or worse.

[There was plenty of reason to be afraid, even if it was necessary in her eyes. She lifts her head then, to look up at him.]

...I liked talking with people, too. Even if I only trusted a few to speak with them like this-- it was really nice.

Then, you've given me two precious things today. [he smiles and raises a hand towards his neck.] Your conversation, and this scarf.

[He grins at her, openly and genuinely. There is no need for her to overexplain the situation in words. Her feelings came through, and Kaworu understands them.]

I wish you wouldn't be afraid, though.

You have my trust as well-- and I am grateful for your conversation, too.

[After a small pause, a smile spreads across her face.]

I've been less afraid lately. I wasn't afraid to tell you.

Maybe some day I won't be afraid at all.

Edited 2014-02-07 06:03 (UTC)

a happy end

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