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Date & Time: 06.18 and on;
Location: Asch's basement, outside, anywhere;
Characters: the Dan, their uncles, anybody else involved?! I am losing track. people. six degrees of separation. tag yourselves!!
Summary: as usual, anti-spam mingle log due to numerous interactions between numerous people. action, voice, text, video, post-its.
Warnings: bombs?!

They thought that trips to Alaska and getting shots would be the beginning of a relaxing break. Instead they got quarantines and bombs and people getting mad at them. Big. Sigh.

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[He's slouched over, folding his hands in front of his legs, bottle dangling from his hand. His words are direct and crisp, as though he was reporting to a superior officer.]

There were a few attacks, all last year.

[He's done his research and he follows the network closely enough to get a general grasp of what events were happening and had happened. Boredom was a poison, even to someone who tried to shut the world out. He mumbles.] ... they were easy on us for a few months.

... So a lot of the newer Transports weren't prepared at all.

[He pushes himself off the wall, opening his own bottle to take a sip of the water. He takes a deep breath, hoping it'll send more oxygen into his bloodstream, then looks over at Shinji with a genuinely relieved smile.]

... Well, it's good to see you safe.

[It's hard to stay annoyed when he's given such a sincere expression. Shinji relents, relaxing beneath the smile even if he doesn't return it. His brow knits in worry as he looks in Shintaro's general direction, though not quite at him.]

... I'm glad that you made it down here. [A beat.] The girl you were looking for. Did you find her?

Aah...

[He trails off, faltering as he drops a hand to his knee.] I thought I might be able to find her down here, but I don't think she is... so I can't stay too long.

For now, though, I can barely stand.

[Why can't you just stay.]

Wouldn't she have found shelter already?

[He shakes his head, sighing, and tightens his hold on the water bottle, crumpling the plastic a little.]

She'd either be lost or using her scarf to help anyone that's hurt. Or both. [Heroic, stupid, reckless.]

[It's mean of him to say. But...

Shinji averts his gaze, lowering his voice.]

You should leave it to someone else.

I can't. [He doesn't raise his voice. In fact, he lowers it. His tone is darker and almost pained as he grasps the bottle tighter yet. His eyebrows are furrowed and his lips are pursed as he stares at the ground, although he's not seeing any of the gravel by his feet. In his mind, a scarf flutters.

He covers his face with a hand.]

... I don't want to hear the "news" from someone else again.

[... he's intruded too far. Shinji silently withdraws, pulling back his selfish annoyance back into himself, locking it up so that it doesn't seep out outwardly.]

... sorry. I didn't mean to be pushy.

... [He holds his head for seconds, lost in thought, not immediately reacting to the apology. When he finally does, he lifts his head to look at Shinji with a slightly alarmed expression. Crap, he said that out loud, didn't he?

(He really needs to get a hold of himself. Getting upset like that.)]

Aah-- sorry! No, it's fine, I didn't mean to snap at you.

It's not your fault. [He says it plainly, as if it's the most obvious answer.] I shouldn't have pried.

["It wasn't prying" "What you were saying makes sense" "Sorry"

He doesn't say any of that, but he releases the tension in his body and leans back against the wall again.]

... Right.

[He shouldn't have made it so tense, not after Shintaro seemed so happy to see him. Shinji looks Shintaro's way.]

... I hope you find her.

... I do too.

[He's nervous. He really hopes he can. He sees Shinji look his way, so he takes a sip of his water and tries to give him a smile.]

[Even if he doesn't feel like it, Shinji tries returning the attempt of a smile with one of his own. Shintaro can't disappear. There are measures here that weren't present in his homeworld that prevented someone from vanishing, no matter how horrible something happened...

He turns his head away, looking back at the ground.]

... Hey.

[He's turned to Shinji still, though the smile is dropped. Just a casual glance, at least from someone like Shintaro.]

[He doesn't look back up, but at least he responds.] Yeah?

[He holds up an arm, the back of his hand facing Shinji. He would be embarrassed to the ends of the world if Shinji doesn't return the gesture, but he's just going to shut his eyes mentally and go in for this wrist bump.]

I'm no optimist. But... it'll probably work out somehow.

[He seems confused by the gesture. After a moment of studying it, he raises his hand and gently places his wrist against Shintaro's. Bump.]

... even if your friend gets into trouble, the Initiative can save her. ['Gets into trouble' being 'dying.']

[Ah, good. He nods and presses back against it gently.]

Mm. I know. But... [he opts not to give the gross details] It's complicated. I want her to stay out of trouble. [He doesn't want to see her die again.]

[Wrist bump complete, he sets his hand down.] She sounds like the type to look for trouble to me.

[Running off and being a hero--that's a sure way to land yourself into unwanted danger and attention.]

She's a busybody. She won't leave you alone when you want her to. She tries to talk to you when you want it to be quiet. She gets excited about everything even if you're not interested. She tries to help you whether you want it or not.

[He lets his voice get gentle. He masks how it wants to get sad.]

But she's a friend. [yesterday, today, and even tomorrow.]

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[And like that, he understands.]

... a good friend, even if she's trouble. Right?

Mm.

[A friend. He referred to her as such, but does he really have the right to call her that? To affirm that that is exactly what they are? But... he would like to be. He would like to be her friend. He wants to call her that if she would still like him to be her friend.

If I died here, right now, there would always be someone to take my place.

There were billions of people in that world. The worth of one person had been insignificant. He hadn't cared, and yet...]

... She can't be replaced. I guess that's a way to put it?

[He had friends (a friend?) like that, before everything disappeared with the squeeze of Eva's hand. Shinji understands. And he feels jealous, thinking of how simple Shintaro's friendship with this girl must be, and how important and unique.

Softly, he speaks.]

... you need to be more careful with her, then.