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exsiliumlogs2013-07-11 08:24 pm
knightofcourage) wrote in exsiliumlogs2013-07-11 08:24 pm
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Date & Time: July 11th, afternoon
Location: Unit 103
Characters: Emil Castagnier, Aster
Summary: Face twin meets face stealer, awkwardness ensues.
Warnings: Mention of murder and excess of blond teenage boys.
[Nearly a week of hiding out at Kaneis's place, and Emil still hasn't figured out a good time to do anything. He's been watching Aster through the tablet, trying to figure out what he knows - and it's not much, from what he's seen Aster say. It's not as though Emil deserves better, but the fact that Aster doesn't seem to remember anything about their meeting in the Ginnungagap makes everything even worse.
How could you tell anyone you'd killed them without a thought? Let alone taking their form for your own purposes? In all this time spent rarely straying from the room (impromptu hat adventures aside) he's thought of a thousand things he could say to Aster, but not a single one that Emil could go out and say right now without ruining everything for Aster - Aster, who Richter cared so much for and who seems like such a good person now that Emil has seen more of him. Everything he's seen says that Aster deserves far more than he got; Emil deserves the exact opposite. He can't just destroy all that...or so Emil tells himself.
And so five and a half days of thinking himself in circles later, Emil's sitting around in Kaneis's room when he hears a knock at the door. He's a little bit curious, but figuring that the caller must be a friend of one of the (permanent) occupants here he elects to stay where he is. Less awkward questions that way, right?]
Location: Unit 103
Characters: Emil Castagnier, Aster
Summary: Face twin meets face stealer, awkwardness ensues.
Warnings: Mention of murder and excess of blond teenage boys.
[Nearly a week of hiding out at Kaneis's place, and Emil still hasn't figured out a good time to do anything. He's been watching Aster through the tablet, trying to figure out what he knows - and it's not much, from what he's seen Aster say. It's not as though Emil deserves better, but the fact that Aster doesn't seem to remember anything about their meeting in the Ginnungagap makes everything even worse.
How could you tell anyone you'd killed them without a thought? Let alone taking their form for your own purposes? In all this time spent rarely straying from the room (impromptu hat adventures aside) he's thought of a thousand things he could say to Aster, but not a single one that Emil could go out and say right now without ruining everything for Aster - Aster, who Richter cared so much for and who seems like such a good person now that Emil has seen more of him. Everything he's seen says that Aster deserves far more than he got; Emil deserves the exact opposite. He can't just destroy all that...or so Emil tells himself.
And so five and a half days of thinking himself in circles later, Emil's sitting around in Kaneis's room when he hears a knock at the door. He's a little bit curious, but figuring that the caller must be a friend of one of the (permanent) occupants here he elects to stay where he is. Less awkward questions that way, right?]
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[Emil's not all that happy with it, but he knows Aster can't be either. And yet there don't seem to be any better alternatives at the moment, so here they are.]
I wish I could do more. I'm sorry.
[He's apologizing a lot and he's aware of that, but if there's anybody who deserves that it's Aster. And Emil knows that if this were their world, if he weren't so far from a place where much of his power had more meaning, then would have been able to change his own appearance again. It would have been hard, because people knew him as he was now and Emil himself was among them, but really it would only be fair.
Of course, if they were on their own world Aster would be probably dead to begin with. If only there were some other way.]
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[While that may come out harshly from another person, it's spoken gently by him. If this were any other time, he would have thought it was interesting. Maybe even by honored Ratatosk chose his body to emulate. This isn't one of those moments, but it's not as though Aster harbors ill feelings. Just awkward feelings.]
It was a mistake. Taking my body's form was not intentional and I see that.
[None of this was intentional. While it may have started off malicious, it was still a mistake. Cautiously, he raises his hand and places it on Emil's shoulder. After all, if they're going to face this head on, then they're going to have to acknowledge each other. To have courage.
As quickly as he does it, he recedes his hand back with a smile and stands up.]
It will be okay.
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"It will be okay," he'd said. Emil still thought it felt strange trying to convince himself of that. But hearing it reminds him of being home, traveling with his friends, and Emil responds to that. His friends always believed in him even when he didn't, and...he misses them. Maybe he ought to talk to the ones he has here sometime? He's not sure.]
...Maybe.
[It's a step, at least.]
I guess we'll see with time.
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What should he do now? Work on his relationship with Emil? He didn't want the summon spirit to hold onto that guilt when it was obvious he felt terrible about it.]
Correct. I am sure a war will require much time here.
[Then with the slightest of waves, he adds:]
I think I am going to head back to the library. Thank you for taking the time to speak to me today.
[A slight pause.]
...Please keep in touch.
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[He's leaving now. Emil feels relieved for that himself, because he feels like he needs a little space right now and he can't even imagine what Aster must be feeling right now.
Still, he feels like he should say something more after all of this.]
This isn't where I normally live. My room is across the hall from here, if you ever need it.
[He knows it's not new to Aster (he'd seen Asbel mention it on the network, which was frustrating but not entirely unforeseen given that the only person he'd talked to about this was Kaneis) but it feels better to say it himself - like an offer, if and only if Aster wants to take it up.]
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Thank you. I will be sure to keep your offer in mind.
[He doubts Emil will take him up if he offers the same in return, but he wants his lookalike to be aware that his offer to keep the lines of communication open was genuine.]
My room is 910, though you may have better luck finding me in the library.
[That's about the best they can do right now.]
Take care, Emil.
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Yeah. You, too.