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Date & Time: Earlier in December
Location: House of Miscommunication Hearts
Characters: Sora & Roxas
Summary: Awkward.
Warnings: So damn awkward

[Sora really hasn't spoken to Roxas much since Xion left and Lea had told him what he knew. It wasn't that he didn't care, he really did. It's just...He hadn't known what to say, or how to face him. Even if Lea had tried to insist otherwise, Sora couldn't shake the feeling that it was all his fault Xion was gone. Not only that, but to know that Xion had been slowly killing Roxas.......had anyone told him that? Should he let him know? He didn't have the first clue.]

[And so, feeling guilty and clueless, he avoided. He put up with the nightmares that came from sleeping alone, he avoided areas on the base that he knew Roxas would like to be. He almost hated himself for it, knowing how much it bothered him when people did that to him- but he didn't know what else to do.]

[But it was moving down to the planet that broke the avoidance. It was kinda hard to do that in the same household, much less the same bedroom after all. And so, it'll be when Riku and Lea are out working that he'll actually attempt to brave a conversation one-on-one with Roxas while standing in the doorway of their room.]

....Hey.

[Yeah. He's off to a great start.]

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[Roxas thought the way Sora withdrew was a little weird, but he appreciated the space. He was ready to stretch his legs finally and get off the moon, and he's taken to the new dwelling about as well as one could expect. He's actually spent a lot of time in his room-- or rather, his and Sora's shared room-- but whenever Sora's around, he hides whatever he's working on.

This is one of those times. Sora might catch a glimpse of string and that's it. It's gone, shoved under his pillow, and Roxas is looking a little alarmed.

Great start, really.]

Oh... uh... hey.

[They haven't spoken for a while. It suddenly occurs to Roxas that it's been a couple of weeks. ... Did he do something? Did Sora finally get tired of him?]

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[Roxas thinking that your other half, the more friendly half no less, has gotten tired of you has to be one of the most depressing displays of low self-esteem ever. I'm just saying.]

[Seeing that Roxas is alarmed and hiding something, there's a part of him that wants to say sorry for interrupting and leave. But no. That wouldn't solve anything, would it? Just give him an excuse to avoid more. He had more courage than that]

[And so instead he takes it as a in, and steps into the room, trying to see if he can get a peep at whatever Roxas shoved under his pillow]

What're you doing?

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[That is pretty fucking sad, to be honest. Roxas is just-- well, he doesn't think about these things and how much sense they make.

He sees Sora's look of curiosity and plants a hand on his pillow.]

-- Nothing.

[Yeah ok. That's real convincing.]

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[So convincing. He grins a little and puts his hands on his hips as he teases]

It doesn't look like nothing...!

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[Oh my god. Roxas is actually starting to look embarrassed.]

I-it's none of your business, so just leave it alone.

[It's not like it's your damn Christmas present or anything jfc.]

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[BUT HE WANTS TO KNOOOOOW. Except okay, since that's not really the reason he wanted to talk to Roxas, he'll back off before Roxas gets anymore embarrassed.]

[And you know, it's Christmastime or something]

Okay, okay- I'll leave it alone.

[Walking over, he'll sit down on the end of the bed far far away from the pillow]

I just...wanted to see how you were. I know we haven't talked in awhile.

[Which is his fault. And he knows it.]

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[Sora just invited himself into Roxas' bed. He is so not prepared for this-- except it's actually not the first time-- OH BOY.

He looks just as guilty as Sora feels, though. He places his hands in his lap and looks at them instead.]

... I said something, didn't I? You're not the kind of person to avoid people unless they did something awful.

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[Roxas you were inside of him are you really one to fret about personal space. ]

[And wow okay Roxas thought it was his fault Sora hadn't talked to him? The guilt goes through the roof and he does a vocal flail]

What? No! Of course not! You didn't do anything, Roxas! Don't think like that!

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[SO WAS KAIRI BUT they don't have that kind of relationship.

Roxas looks a bit surprised. And here he thought it was totally his fault! Living with someone who's supposed to be part of yourself would be awkward, right? Right.

But that's not the case at all, and now he feels bad for even bringing it up.]

... Sorry.

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[Yeah it's true you're not his disney princess I'm sorry Roxas]

[Sora nearly facepalms at Roxas's apology. Why is he apologizing for something that's not even his fault and Sora just told wasn't his fault? ]

No....you don't have to apologize either, it's not your....

[He gives a little sigh]

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[Maybe it'd be better if he just explained]

Lea...told me about Xion. The truth about her.

[Now it's his turn to look at his hands. He was by no means a coward, but this was still hard for him]

I was worried about you...but I didn't know what to say, after hearing all that. So I kept my distance.

So really, I should be the one apologizing.

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[Whoa. Now that is not what he was expecting at all, and Roxas stares openly at him as a result. He really cares about that random girl in his heart. If Lea told him everything, then he probably knows about that, too. And he probably knows they were friends-- not that it wasn't obvious, the way they dressed alike and spent so much time together.

Roxas takes a moment to collect himself.]

... It's okay. [Not the best beginning, but he's trying.] I still don't understand everything myself. I don't know what happened to Xion exactly, or why she had to disappear. I don't remember her at all outside of Exsilium even though we were best friends.

I was so confused and mad when she left I just... didn't talk to anyone about it. I kept it in 'cause I don't know what to do.

[A pause.]

You really worried about me?

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[And he listens, bracing himself before it happens. The answer wasn't what he expected]

You...

['I don't know what happened to Xion exactly, or why she had to disappear.' Roxas doesn't know. He wasn't told the same things he was. There were things that he was kept in the dark about again.]

[Part of him feels a bit frustrated that he wasn't told. But on the other hand...how could he even tell himself? Tell him the true reasons why his best friend went away? He's...not sure he could do that. Even if he's not good at hiding things from Roxas, he's not sure he can do that.]

[He focuses on that question instead. It's easier to answer than all the painful things he has no clue how to fix]

Roxas...of course I worried about you. You're important to me.

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[One step a time. It's the only thing Roxas can do now. He has no idea of what Sora might be thinking, as similar as they are. Now that they're separated, Roxas isn't even sure what he feels anymore. If he's allowed to feel. He's only half a person.

But Sora is honest. He's obviously okay with feeling, with admitting that he cares about his other half. For a second, Roxas feels like being real is attainable. Like he actually exists.]

... You're really something else. [As cynical as he's feeling, he can't help being a little glad too.] Most people... but you're not like most people.

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[Not this again. If he sounds a bit exasperated, it's just because between Roxas and Riku he's getting real fed up of the idea he's something special because he doesn't act like a total jerk]

That's not true, Roxas. There's lots of people who'd care about you if they knew you. You're just unlucky that most of the people you've met were jerks.

[A year of life with the Organization would skew anyone's perspective on people. It hurt to think that Roxas never really had a chance to experience better. To experience all the wonderful things that Sora's seen, through his own eyes.]

Though...it doesn't help there's a lot of wrong information about Nobodies floating around either.

[Information that he willingly believed, that he went along with. It wasn't until he learned about Roxas did he even start to question it. How different could have things been if they had known the truth all along?]

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[Roxas' eyes widen a bit, surprised at the bluntness of the statement... but maybe not too much.]

Maybe. [His tone implies that he agrees more than not. Most of the Organization were jerks, and Xemnas had purposely spread bad information. Roxas remembered that much. How could he not remember how furious Sora had been? It was Roxas who'd given him that anger, right?]

If we were like this forever...

[He hasn't allowed himself to think about this. He doesn't want to get his hopes up. In a way, he's having a hard time acknowledging that he even has a role outside of being the other half.]

I don't know. I'm not sure I can make friends like you do. I barely know anyone here in Exsilium.

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[....Sure. If it makes you feel better to think your other half doesn't have anger issues of his own, you go on ahead and think that.]

[But hearing Roxas even mention that possibility? Makes Sora feel a bit glad. Glad that Roxas was growing to acknowledge the possibility that they were different. As if maybe the damage of the past could be undone.]

[Though Roxas next comment sure reminds him that they still got a long way to go.]

...That's because you never go out, Roxas. But you don't have to make friends exactly like I do, you know.

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[A really long ways to go. But if Hercules can do it-- wait, no, bad example. He frowns a bit at the accusation. Roxas totally leaves the house sometimes... ... sometimes... but it's not his fault it's fucking cold outside.]

I don't know the first thing about making friends.

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What? Sure you do! You've made friends before.

[...T-Two of them anyway]

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But I worked with them. Here, things are a little different. We get sent on missions sometimes, but there's too many people to deal with.

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[jfc he hasn't experience this sort of headache since dealing with Eeyore]

Well....what if you got a job here? Or went to a club that interests you! Then it'd be a bit like how you got to know people before, wouldn't it?

[Just...minus the truly evil boss and organ harvesting!]

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A club?

[He's not arguing that, but... seriously, what's a club?]

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[Yeeeah, he knows that clueless tone]

A club's a group of people that meet up over a shared interest! Like a baking club will meet up and bake together because they all like baking.

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[Not a bad idea. He puts his hand on his chin.]

Is there a club for eating ice cream?

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[.........................oh god he didn't want to be the one to break this news.]

[LEA WHERE ARE YOU.]

Heh heh....I dunno, I haven't checked!

But you know, it might be too cold for people to be having ice cream........I haven't seen any in the stores...........