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riku ([personal profile] curepotion) wrote in [community profile] exsiliumlogs2012-02-29 05:07 am

"sooner or later, i swear; we're gonna make it."

Date & Time: Very early morning, 2/28
Location: Apartment lobby; kitchenette
Characters: Riku and John Watson
Summary: Nightmares are, quite frankly, a horrible thing to go through. But, most soldiers do suffer them. Plus, microchips, damn those microchips. It's okay, though--we can have a cuppa.
Warnings: Possible blood because chip removal! Also, maybe talks of fighting. Subject to change.

[ the past few days, he hadn't been able to sleep. really, ever since he arrived, he hadn't been able to sleep.

... alright, really, ever since he had been infected with Darkness, when that power thrummed through his body, he found it hard to sleep as it conspired to completely tear him apart from the inside. not just physically, but mentally. fighting his inner demon day in and day out was an incredible chore that, while it sharpened his mental defenses, made him tired. he wasn't sure how to sleep normally anymore. he remembered reading a book once that said normal sleep, way back then, was usually interrupted by an hour or so. with that small bit of information, he found some solace in the way he woke up screaming from nightmares of not only himself being torn apart, but himself, possessed, hurting everyone he cared about.

usually, he could stay in his room and console himself by staying awake for a few hours, reading or working on maintaining a good form with his spells, or sometimes just obsessively washing dishes, something mindless. no matter how much he washed, he couldn't find something that would tear his mind off of his dark thoughts. he went for a walk instead, hopeful that the crisp air would help.

it didn't. so he just retired to the kitchenette, and, too tired to go back upstairs, washed a cup he'd found nearby, silent, dressed in too-large pajamas, hair still mussed and a mess from tossing and turning. he brought a hand up to rub at the mark on his face from the sheets before he looked down at his red hands. he distinctly wondered if that chip in his back was giving him worse nightmares somehow.

Riku sighed and set the mug down carefully as he crossed his arms at the edge of the sink and rested his forehead against them. ]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-02-29 10:44 am (UTC)(link)
[the doctor welcomed the nights of sleep he could manage to get, which was less than he could count for before he was brought here. since.. the incident, of course the chances of that were slimmer, but even then they weren't nearly this bad.

maybe it was to do with being in the same situation again? some kind of trigger that forced them to repeat on and on again. taste of blood, smell of death, the unbearable heat and shouts of comrades, bullets flying and the never ending war. it made the weight on his shoulder all the more heavy, the quick pounding beat of his heart and throwing him into constant sweats.

out. he needed out. he couldn't linger in his room any longer, not when he woke up every time a stranger in a new environment. he'll get use to it, eventually. least that's what he kept telling himself. but even as he continued to lay there to catch his breath, rubbing at his eyes and running hand through his hair, it didn't comfort or calm him down.

so he automatically pushed himself up and out, making his way quietly with his eyes every few moments glancing down to his left arm and leg. this was still war. finally he came across the kitchenette, only one thing on his mind while he tried to push the images of nightmares away. however, he came across a figure and he honestly hadn't expected anyone to be up around this time (what time was it anyways? three am? two?) and not just that but he recognized who this was.

he didn't have to be Sherlock to figure out that chances were he was having trouble sleeping, and with what's been going on lately he can't say he's surprised. he's still a kid too so it can't at all be easy on him. despite the nightmares moments ago his tone seeps into concern, carefully making his way again.]


..Riku? You alright?
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-02-29 11:03 am (UTC)(link)
[okay he was not expecting for the blade to suddenly materialize in mid-air, even after the talk of healing and magic that he's slowly getting familiar with, it still startles him for a moment. though, it's not so much startles as it kicks a reflex in him to defend himself. he had left his gun however (idiot), but still manages to halt his step and move out of range let it need be. he had been far too distracted that he left himself open there.

all that leaves him is a "jesus" before he catches Riku's guard relaxing and in turn he slowly does as well, taking in a breath and straightening with a hand sweeping over his own cheek.]


That's fine, it's okay, shouldn't have snuck up on you there.

[apologizing on his part because he really should know better than to do that.

he's almost quiet when he hears the rest, standing there for a moment but understanding is plainly visible.]
That makes two of us.

[he glances briefly to the mug in Riku's hand till around the kitchenette. slowly he talks again, moving around to open a cupboard and pull a mug of his own to set while searching for a pot after.] Care for a cuppa? It'll help.
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-02-29 11:25 am (UTC)(link)
[it doesn't make things all the more easier. but he's learned that it does help, even if a little.

john nods at that, though even if he said no he would have still made him a cup anyways, he gets the pot and starts to fill it up with water once he's satisfied that it's clean and usable. that's mostly out of habit.

then he gets to heating it up, watching Riku now while he searches the cabinets for what he's sure is the tea. not soon after taking the mugs to put them together and bring out the milk as well as any sugar depending on how he would like it. again, once he's sure they're still good to use.

for a moment he lets the silence linger but it's been a while since they've last seen each other]


How've you been?
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-02-29 11:49 am (UTC)(link)
[when the tea is handed over he focuses on preparing, however keeps his eyes glancing time to time to Riku to ensure he was listening and still had his attention on him. he nods again when he replies] Good, glad to hear.

[all he needed to do was wait a few more for the water to finish boiling. the brief smell of tea was enough to wake him a little more, course long since being drowsy but still slightly exhausted.]

Oh, yeah, fine. [from the way he moves it shows he's being a little careful when it comes to the area beneath the back of his neck, he can't exactly strain or move too much. the reason for that is brought up not seconds after] Dealt with that already, can't say I fancy having my every move tracked.

[john goes quiet for a moment, glancing back to the teen.] Did you get one placed on you?
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-02 07:32 am (UTC)(link)
[a bit longer and the water is done boiling, the doctor taking careful measures by grabbing a dishrag to hold the pot while he filled the cups with water.

he's noticed the slight pause before riku's words though. now he wasn't Sherlock Holmes, he couldn't figure things out since he sometimes saw but didn't observe, as he puts it. but, he manages to catch on a few things from time to time.

brows knit together thoughtfully while he made his tea how he liked it and gestured for riku that he's free to do the same with his own. ]


You.. didn't get it removed yet, did you. [he's speaking slowly, sounding like a question but more so a statement. the boy didn't look to be moving like he had gotten treatment done recently.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-04 09:06 am (UTC)(link)
[John flickers his gaze briefly to his arm, watching the handle and it clicks that something might be wrong. That, or well, he could just be right-handed. The doctor brings his gaze back up to Riku's face with a curious look.]

You won't? [He shifts, spinning the spoon in his cup to mix the contents with another thought.] I could remove it for you with no trouble, I've done the procedure plenty by now.
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-04 09:41 am (UTC)(link)
[John isn't one to push but.. doctor mode, he's not sure he can take no as an answer.]

Sorry, hope you don't mind me being forward but.. I'm gonna have to insist. There's no saying what they can do with it. Not to mention it could cause an infection if you let it stay. [he's just concerned Riku.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-06 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
[Brows knitted together at the look, and he could feel the weariness run down on his own body and almost backed out for a moment. But he was sticking by his words. It was true that they didn't know what could happen by letting it linger, honestly John didn't want to take the chances.

Still, he let Riku continue instead of interrupting him. He could get the reason for the hesitation.. many reasons could come into play. Could be trust, risking the procedure, being not familiar with this kind of world and the people.. They were all strangers deep down to one another. Except for those from the same world.

His grip tighten a little on the mug and he finally shook his head.]
You can't. It's specifically placed in that area so you can't do it yourself. There's also the chance you can mess it up and you really don't want to risk that.

[There's no hiding the stern look in his eyes, however there's also understanding. So now he's considering how to do the procedure.] I won't put you to sleep if it bothers you, you can be awake during it. [There's the promise of easing the pain though.]

I'm a doctor, I only want to help.
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-06 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ "You don't have to help me. I'm okay alone. Being alone protects people. I could hurt you."

No.

Immediately John could feel his own body tensing up, jaw clenching with a slow breath through his nose and the mug makes an audible loud noise as its placed back on the counter. Not really intending to startle, just loud enough to snap his attention back to him.

Even if he really wanted to smack the kid upside the head. But he wasn't going to let the anger at that response get him that upset. He wasn't that kind of person. That's not a promise in the future as they get to know each other more however.]


Wrong. It's not okay being alone, and it's definitely not what protects people. Friends, others, they protect people.

[It snagged at his heart, those words. Because Sherlock himself had said words just like those. And as much as he wanted to prove it to him.. he didn't really get that chance.]

I'm willing to take that shot.
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-06 07:08 am (UTC)(link)
Good.

[John seems pleased by Riku's response now, if it's anything to go on by now. Though he adds a slight apology if he startled him with the sudden reaction.

He raises the cup back to his lips now glad he didn't break it in his act for snatching attention. Before he could sip though he quirks a brow, hearing the last of his words.]


..I take more than just trouble sleeping? Are you having nightmares? [He asks curiously, seeking a more direct answer now.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-07 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh. Well, he wasn't really expecting this to turn into a show-and-tell ordeal. John just looks the faintest of uncomfortable, mostly since he didn't always talk about his nightmares. However, he does nod with a thumb brushing over the smooth surface of the cup.]

Yeah, had them before. Being in this kind of environment hasn't been helping them though. [small smile.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-09 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
Can't disagree on that.

[hard to have any pleasant dreams under this influence, it's been fueling his instead.]

Can you think of what made them start? [before he waits for an answer John speaks again, if to give reason to why he was asking.] Mine began with the war I was in, not a surprise having them here when war was the reason in the first place.
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-11 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
You.. destroyed your homeworld?

[The tone John spoke in wasn't the "I don't believe you" range, there was a lot he hadn't believed before that he came to see real proof of so there was really no point in speaking in a tone that would suggest it. Course disbelief was often there, except now John could only sound puzzled.

After all, how can a teen like him destroy his homeworld? That would provide a lot of power like.. well, bombs or of some sort. ..Except not all worlds were the same, he had to remember that, some had magic and healing of sorts.

Magic.. could magic be strong enough to do that? Well, he bloody sure doesn't know.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-12 06:27 am (UTC)(link)
[He's quiet for a moment, trying to wrap his head around this. He's already becoming familiar with different timelines and the like, different worlds apparently too. How can one have the usage of magic and the other not, with proof there after all?

Still, he doesn't take Riku to be a villain or anything. Rather from the sounds of it..]


Did you know it would happen? The Darkness and.. the, Heartless? Is that what you said?
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-15 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
[The doctor doesn't push, if he been told to describe something called the heartless.. well, he wouldn't know how to either he's sure.

John straightens with a nod and seems to have guessed right with this bit.]
To me it doesn't sound like it was your fault at all then, you took a shot at an opportunity. Many would have done the same in your situation.

[of course that isn't to say, well, destroying your homeworld is good. but from John's tone, he honestly doesn't blame Riku for it.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-15 01:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Sure. [though it's along the lines of 'just really saying it how it is' or how he thinks, can't help but trying to comfort the teen about things like that. he shouldn't have to carry guilt like that.

John's taking a few more drinks from his mug before he straightens, he isn't sure what much to do here.]


If you like I can take the chip out now, unless you want another try at sleep.

[even though he asks he kinda already knows the answer.]
Edited 2012-03-15 13:48 (UTC)
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-16 10:56 am (UTC)(link)
Well there's the clinic, it's only a short walk from here. Everything I'd need is there.

[he seems generally amused at the masks mention]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-17 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[he understands the hesitation, however John's own response is neither nor unsure. he's completely confident in his skills.]

Of course. I've gone through a lot of training and schooling to get where I am. [read: you can trust me on this.]
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[personal profile] doctorly 2012-03-19 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
[okay good, that gets a nod from him and since he's done with his cuppa he's going to set it back into the sink to wash later.

after does he start heading towards the clinic which should only take few minutes of a walk.]